Sunday, November 28, 2010
♥ 12:40 AM
I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
that you belong with me
you might think
I don't look
but deep inside in the corner of my mind
I'm attatched to you
mmmm
I'm weak
it's true
cause I'm afraid to know the answer
do you want me too?
cause my heart keeps falling faster
[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
to the only thing thats true
so I will not hide
i'ts time to try anything to be with you
all my life I've waited
this is true
you don't know
what you do
everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move
I'm weak
it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
do you see me too?
do you even know you met me
[Chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
to the only thing thats true
so I will not hide
its time to try anything to be with you
all my life I've waited
this is true
I know when I go
I'll be on my way to you
the way that's true
[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
to the only thing thats true
so I will not hide
its time to try anything to be with you
all my life I've waited
this is true
I used to like this song a lot last time. I've been reminded these 2 weeks that songs really expresses someone. Sometimes i really feel that at times when we ourselves have no idea what we want or how we're feeling, the songs we choose to listen to speaks best (: studying these 2 weeks has made me rather melancholic? i have no idea why seriously. HAHA! i just saw something very funny. from wikipedia "In a modern context, "melancholy" applies only to the mental or emotional symptoms of depression or despondency" LOL! no wonder im feeling this way. study indeed can bring about depression. haha. im just kidding. i dont mean it that way. hmm, i think it's better expressed as melancholic + nostalgic = kind of what im getting at. anyway, yesterday's cell was about being true. maybe this song kinds of expresses me? HAHA. i know i dont usually write about this kind of stuff on my blog. But then again, isn't it better that im writing it here? it's called " journey to being real ". HAHA. life's not all about revelations anyway (:
Sunday, November 21, 2010
♥ 6:14 PM
something made me kind of guilty today. it is so true when pastor said that one dollar seems so "BIG" in church and so "small" in a mall. is it our self-righteousness acting up? that makes us feel like " oh my goodness, i'm giving God so much " when we give let's say $50. i mean it's really a lot! i mean, for my age at least, how often does that amount come out of my pocket as offering? maybe once or twice a year? but how often does that amount come out of my pocket in a mall? i gotta say almost more than once every week. how can we feel casual about spending $50 on a meal but have so much difficulty giving it to God? plus time and time again when we freely give to God, we've experienced His multiplication miracle happening to us. and yet every time when He calls us to freely give, we struggle. so weird eh? didn't the Bible ask us to store up treasures in heaven where it cant be destroyed? but then again, end of the day, what i'm trying to put across here is not the money, but the attitude. i mean, He loves us so much that He gave His son. and yet we struggle so much when we're called to give Him some time to serve, to pray, to just spend time with Him. i'm not trying to make whoever's reading this feel guilty too. HAHA. i mean, it's my blog. i'm just writing my reflections (: perhaps, i'm the one who's gonna need to read this in the future?
