Times & Seasons

Thursday, April 23, 2009

♥ 9:37 PM

canoeing is addictive. as in it sort of comes in a package. like the sport and the team?

i was just hanging out with the canoeists these few days and i read the blogs of some canoeists from other schools. and i realised every body is saying the same things! it's always the.. how i miss the shed, miss my boat, miss my paddle, miss training, miss canoeing. ya, seriously, every body's addicted and i have no idea why. dont get me wrong. it's not that i'm not feeling that way. i am also starting to feel the addiction after nationals but i just have no idea what made us all feel this way.

Is the sport really so addictive? Are we so used to tough training that we feel all weird without running 4.3km? Is it because we're in JC and we put in more effort, we are more serious about our cca that we have this clingy feeling? Is it because we spend so much time together because of cca commitment that we just feel weird without seeing each other? or is it because of the emotional roller coaster we went on as a team during every one of our competitions that we have emotional ties bonded to each other?

hahaha! it's funny how different the feeling is comparing sec school and JC ccas. actually i wonder.. is it just canoeing or does every other cca in JC feel the same way as we do? I was just at badminton training yesterday and i saw how they laughed together and stuff and i just began to ask myself.. will they miss the team like how i'd miss mine after they step down? will they be proud that they had once been there done that? will i feel that same way I do now if i had joined some other cca? hahaha! okay, that's too many questions. anw, round two tomorrow! badminton training and canoeing training. wow.. I'm amazing. hahaha!

Friday, April 17, 2009

♥ 11:47 PM

Integrity & Dignity. since primary school i've been taught to choose the former. even in church im taught to forgive and forget. but can you really take it when you choose to make the "right" choice? or the more "big hearted" choice? sometimes it's just so unfair. why? why must the bad people always get their way but those who choose to walk the "right" path dont get what they deserve? why? is it really sufficient to know in my heart that im better and watch others get the reward? sometimes i just feel so indignant and confused. maybe i'm not "big" enough? parents always teach us that winning is not everything. maybe they should tell me that winning is nothing. people always say that as long as we've tried our best and have no regrets it's okay. even i tell people that. but somehow we all know that there's the "if only". why must it always be so close yet so far? is the reward really that important? it's just there, just a breath away, and it slipped right through. it was so real for a moment. all my life, i've never gotten so close to even dream of it and i saw it vanish before my eyes one after another.

Father God, what is it that You want to teach me?

Thursday, April 16, 2009

♥ 8:01 PM

GO TPJCanoeist! GO PLASTEX!

hmm.. okay, i'm trying very hard to type now.

well, the competition's over for me. hmm.. what can i say.. I'm not really that sad cox i know my timing improved by more than 16 seconds over these 2 weeks. last week on a raptor it was 2.39 and yesterday on the new nelo vintage it was 2.23. today i was much faster on the new plastex olympic warrior but nobody timed me. anw, in good times i praise God, in bad times i will still choose to praise Him. cox if it's not for Him i wouldn't even be part of this wonderful adventure with this awesome team. This is indeed one of the seasons of my life which i will remember for a long long long time. and really, throughout this whole period i've grown and learnt so much about the way i look at things, the way i handle issues. so for all these things, i thank God that He has led me down this path and brought so many wonderful friends into my life.