Sunday, March 29, 2009
♥ 9:16 PM
why do people come to church? because they see it as a social club where they can make friends? because their best friend or their "stead" is in church? because it's their "duty"? why do people stay in church? because they've made supposedly strong friendships? because it has become a routine in their lives?
well, i guess what i'm trying to say here is that i feel that many people are coming to church rather than coming to God. one thing i really like about pastor phil is his heart after God. he mentioned something which impacted me a lot during service.. " when was the last time you got carried away in the presence of God? when was the last time u got abandoned to God? " there can and should be only one reason why we come into the house of God. it's simply because we're so addicted to Him. Addicted to His love, His grace, His mercy, His presence. think of it as a friend you have. when you're very close to a person, don't you long to be where the person is? wont you hang around places where you know the person will turn up at? and just seeing Him makes your heart beat a little faster. you can't wait to tell the whole world all about Him even though sometimes u can't really explain everything about Him. His name is always on your lips and you just go on and on and on about Him.
I think it is impossible ( at least for me ) to stay in church without experiencing the love of God. so i salute those who are able to do what i deem to be impossible. cox they are able to bear all the misery they feel when they see people around them walking prosperous, happy, loving every bit of their life, when they themselves are wondering," what am i doing here? " and they're just "tahan-ing". it's just like having constipation. wow, that's sad.
But guess what? the truth is, the joy of the Lord is actually very easily obtainable. Just read His Word! Pray! Worship! ya, everybody says that. So why aren't some people listening? I know this sounds really stupid but it's actually what's going on in some people's mind. people actually say " wait awhile ", " maybe later ", " i'll do it when I'm free " to their very solution to happiness! do they really like their state of misery? or do they doubt that it actually works? come on, why forsake that 1 second of happiness for misery? Just do it! Try it out! don't let your christian walk be such a dreadful one. i remember when i first became a christian, people kept telling me what an ADVENTURE the christian walk is! so why just sit by the ride and watch people enjoy? join the ride and experience the fun!
Psalm 34:8
Oh, taste and see that the Lord is good; blessed is the man who trusts in Him!
Saturday, March 28, 2009
♥ 11:21 PM
I think im being very "not myself" lately and i hate this feeling. it's like living life dreadfully. not knowing what i want, not knowing what i need, plus all the little things that add to this stupid feeling. this is just so not me. haix..
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
♥ 11:02 PM
had cross country nationals today.. hmm.. interesting experience. was supposed to have bio paper after my cross country but er.. i guess the teacher forgot all about it? haha! i didn't know it was possible but it happened anyway. so im gonna go sleep now and take my paper tomorrow morning=)
Sunday, March 22, 2009
♥ 9:18 PM
it's been a weird and interesting holiday. hahaha! Sometimes i wish that my brain will stay in my head and not wonder off. most of the time it flies so far away i find it difficult to catch it back.
Thursday, March 19, 2009
♥ 9:10 PM
people always relate sacrifice to love, how much u sacrifice = the extend of your love. but what about "desire"? how much you sacrifice = how much you desire. for everything we desire in life, it comes with a price (sacrifice). sometimes we desire answers? and to get there we have to go through the fire then things can become clear to us.
For every thing we go through, there's a purpose. maybe we'll find the answers which we've been seeking for? maybe we'll find the peace and comfort? shit doesn't happen for no reason. we're put through the fire. and to go through it, the experience definitely requires something from us. sometimes we may need to break free from our comfort zone, sometimes it may require us to go the extra mile, sometimes it may require us to give more than we think we should.
for quite awhile i've been sacrificing for something which i thought would be very taxing for me, and that i'm giving more than i should. But this week God just began to show me the prize which i've been sacrificing for. and really, it's really a small price to pay for something as wonderful as this.
but also, there's a season to sacrifice. once u miss the season, the reward will no longer be there.
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
♥ 10:39 AM
Saturday, March 07, 2009
♥ 10:03 PM
Some people are in our lives to add to us and some are just here to take from us. common sense tells us to leave those who are here to take from us behind and move on with life. but in actual fact, some times it's just not that easy. Love gives and giving means sacrifice. if someone is unwilling to sacrifice, does it mean that the person does not love? love means to esteem the person higher than urself. does not thinking on behalf of that person mean that there's no love? then what is it? obligation? habit? as much as i'd like to think of it has character, i dont think i can accept that as a reason. i really want to make this work but i dont understand if the problem lies with me or you. I'm just so tired of guessing your thoughts. but on the other hand, i trust you so I'd rather not ask for a reason.
okay, enough of my thoughts. Good news to share! I scored an A for my chinese A levels. ya, i was quite surprised cox i thought I'd get C due to my oral. NJCC is a week from now and i've yet to practice in my K1? ya, best.
Monday, March 02, 2009
♥ 9:14 PM
Went seoul garden for lunch today to celebrate Yvonne's birthday. was quite fun, i ate 5 scoops of ice cream. wahahaha! total fatness!
i'm late for school today. again.. that makes 2 times this term and 1 more time = suspension. sianess.. gotta wake up earlier tomorrow. got SPA trial tomorrow plus need hand in maths star programme homework, stress...
Sunday, March 01, 2009
♥ 8:17 PM
I love to think back. as in my mind cant help but to revisit the past. i wonder if it's the way God designed me to be. and often i would find a lot of answers. so that's not really that bad i guess.
anyway.. mistakes.. hmm.. i guess we've all made stupid mistakes that when we look back now we think that we're super silly? mistakes when we relate to people, mistakes when we make the wrong choices. But what's worse than making the mistakes is that after we know that we've made e wrong choice, we refuse to accept it and happily continue with it. isn't that silly? and our dear patient daddy God never gives up on correcting our mistakes and He keeps prompting us of this little thorn in our flesh that has to be removed so that we don't end up living our life like a clown. okay, this was not what i intended to blog about but i guess i was just thinking about something and this came out.
i wanted to blog about insecurity. ya, i think im quite an insecure person just that i don't really talk about it. but dont worry, i have my emotions under control. hee! should i go berserk one day and become like super paranoid over every little thing, then please do feel free to handcuff me and bring me to a mental asylum. HAHA! i'm just kidding, please do not do that to me. anw, ya, i really wonder how do people deal with insecurities in their life? can it really be totally solved if we're secure in our identity? maybe about 80%? few days ago while i was walking home, God just began to deal with this insecurity that i'm facing. Most of the time when God speaks to me, i just catch the gist of what He's saying and kinda not bother much about the details. But the Bible says in Deuteronomy 4:2 " You shall not add to the word which I command you, nor take from it, that you may keep the commandments of the Lord your God which I command you." ya, and God just reminded me of a little detail which i kinda missed out. After which, i felt much more secure. so, details are very IMPORTANT! wahahaha!
Anw, another matter.. since my birthday is coming (sadly). im actually quite depressed cox that day is totally packed. and i hate days which are packed. i like some free time which i can play around with. and initially i didn't wanna think of it cox i expect it to be like... ya...whatever.. and e more i think about it, the more sad i'll feel? aiya, but i've decided to for the sake of listing to just list my wish list. i know it's 90% impossible. but it's just for fun. so that i can at least derive some joy. okay here it goes.. (and i'm serious, please do not get me any of these unless you really heard God speak to you)
- Epiphone PR-4E acoustic player pack
- PlayStation 3
- Ipod touch
- that Adidas watch
- Canon 10megapixels SLR camera
- that shiny Yonex badminton shoes
- Yonex Arcsaber 10 SP
Now we all know why i asked you not to get unless God really speaks to you. HAHA! okay, thank you for sparing me 30seconds of ur life reading through this list, and fulfilling my 10 seconds of joy. wahahaha! bye bye people!
