Sunday, May 31, 2009
♥ 8:03 PM
I LOVE BADMINTON! i just had to scream that out cox i cannot contain that love within me anymore. hahaha!
okay, anyway i was just reminded of something which i thought is quite important while doing the sharing after service just now. DREAMS. It's what drives us. When it captures us, we find our lives driving forward as if there's a motor attached to us.
When we first receive Christ, we have a thousand and one things we want to accomplish for His kingdom. We look at the song leaders on the stage and aspire to song-lead like them one day. We look at pastor preaching and we want to be like him, to speak to thousands of people. We so often say that we want to win the world for Christ and week after week we just go on and on to our friends about Jesus. Has all this hype slowed down over the years? or did it stop?
I remembered when i first wanted to play guitar, i was in sec 3. i was so inspired by ziwei and his gift in worship leading during cell group meetings that i really want to be able to worship like him. Soon, i started practicing without even having a guitar. my right hand was my guitar neck and my left hand just practiced the chord fingerings on it. a few weeks later i bought a $30 guitar ad practiced chord changing and strumming on it. after i could press all e strings, i tried not looking, and after that i tried changing chords quickly. after i could do all that, my uncle came to me and bought me a $400 takamine acoustic guitar. A year after i started learning guitar, i became a cell group guitarist.
Doesn't all this just seem so fast? I attended this talk last week and the speaker said it's very important to know what you want so that people can help you get to your destination. I believe that is why my uncle bought me a guitar. so often we pray," God bless me.. God bless me..". What exactly do you want God to bless you with? How can He give us something when we dont even know what we're asking for? Also, I think that it is very important for our dreams to become REAL to us before it actually comes to pass. The Bible says that faith is the substance of things hoped for, evidence of things not seen. Which means that to say," I have faith that God is going to make this happen", it has first got to become real for us even before it has happened. To me, wanting to play guitar was so real that i could "play" even without a guitar. And when your dreams have come to that stage, it just seems like you're being propelled towards whatever you're dreaming of and you cannot control it.
perhaps the answer to spiritual stagnancy is that we've stopped dreaming?
Acts 2:17
And it shall come to pass in the last days, says God, that I will pour out of My Spirit on all flesh; Your sons and your daughters shall prophesy, Your young men shall see visions, Your old men shall dream dreams.
Monday, May 25, 2009
♥ 9:27 PM
I've been quite hardworking recently and im very happy about it! =) i need more games to play and more shows to watch. i want to run faster but i'm lazy to train. i want to do more pull ups. I'm addicted to this song " touch my body" cox it's just so funny. i want to buy a lot of things but i have no money. i want to go swimming and get my tan back.
can having too much knowledge really puff someone up? then is it considered as pride or is the person only very confident?
I want to unwind from all these studying and just go have fun but i dont know what i want to do. maybe i should fly to bangkok just to spend the weekend. that'd be so cool. if only money fell from the sky. time for correlation and regression tutorial! im gonna finish you and get started with functions! Pohee said that maths can either make someone very happy or very sad. So you'd better make me happy or i'll tear you into a million pieces!! wahahaha!
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
♥ 9:32 PM
okay, here's something which i seriously do not understand. why do people do things just for the sake of doing it? why do they not consider the consequences of their actions? why do they like to follow the crowd and let others determine what is cool and what's not? why cant people just face up to the fact when it's right before them? why do people think only for now but rarely for the future? do they know that many times the future is ruined all because of a wrong decision they choose to make just to satisfy a want or a need which is temporary? this just reminds me of the story of Esau and Jacob in the Bible.
Esau was the elder son so he had the birthright of the firstborn. One day, after Esau came home from hunting, Jacob had just finished cooking stew and Esau was very hungry. So, Esau asked if Jacob could give him some of his stew and Jacob said that he'd give it in exchange for Esau's birthright. And in a moment of foolishness, Esau said, " yes, why not? I'm so hungry i could die, what has this birthright got to benefit me?" (self-translated) Because of this, Esau allowed Jacob to rob him of his birthright which was so precious all because he only saw what he needed at that moment. How foolish is that? haix..
Sunday, May 17, 2009
♥ 7:24 PM
my temper is going to be very short these few days. poke me and you're DEAD
Saturday, May 16, 2009
♥ 9:46 PM
i dont understand how can somebody do something you detest, hate so many times in a row. i dont understand how can somebody totally ignore the fact that people are imperfect and they make mistakes. i just wanna get the hell out of this place. it's driving me crazy.
Thursday, May 07, 2009
♥ 8:42 PM
"confused"
This totally explains how i'm feeling now. it's like a bunch of mixed feelings inside. it's not really because of my match today. but rather for all that i've been through, im confused. I'm a little ( really just a little) disappointed with my match today cox i thought i could win. but then again i did not train so.. ya, whatever. then comes the wrist problem which never fails to cripple me with fear of not being able to play like i used to. but i made 2 new frens today so im quite happy about it. However, this whole badminton journey has sort of come to an "end"? and frankly speaking, i dont know how to face it. I've never imagined life without competitive badminton before. and just being able to play for these 3 days at the nationals has just reminded me of how much i love this game. just when i'm just starting to get addicted once again to the sound of the game it's over.
I'm really so confused (my class is seriously gonna make this a joke man. but who cares, i'm really confused)
♥ 8:28 PM
24-26, 17-21
is this the end?
Wednesday, May 06, 2009
♥ 7:50 PM
humans are really forgetful. especially this stupid human being typing here now. sometimes i really wonder why am i so forgetful. forgetful of big things, little things. somehow i need to be continually reminded of the reasons why i do certain things or i'll start blaming all the shit around me on wrong things.
i'm just one confused person...
Tuesday, May 05, 2009
♥ 10:25 PM
okay, let me see how am i going to write this.. eh.. i decided to talk about this cox i read this blog post that the choir got silver for their SYF when they were hoping for a Gold and this choir member (whom i have no idea who is it) listed down all the "reasons" why they did not achieve the Gold.
Anyway, I played against Ajc today and ya.. i lost. it's damn difficult for me to admit this, so stop asking me if im okay. anw, i thought about it and i have "reasons" too. my "reason" is that i have no time to train, i was unfamiliar with the court, i've lost touch so naturally my skills have deteriorated. you know what's the best "reason"? it's because i injured my wrist and cannot control the shuttle direction and strength, that's why i keep making stupid mistakes like hitting out of court when she practically gave the game away! okay, i'm sorry this had to be a complaining post but i'm really going crazy.
Friday, May 01, 2009
♥ 10:45 PM
*this post is not supposed to come out until 12am but i need to sleep so.. ya*okay, i'm totally imitating this from someone...
This post is specially dedicated to my dear twin who has stuck with me for the past half a decade (poor thing). haha! On this special day of yours I just wanna tell you how much i appreciate you being in my life. All the captain talk when we were a team, the 3am talks during the holidays, the uncle muthu crap when i was in bangkok, the long emails when i went USA, and of course the candy wonderland if you still remember. These are really precious memories that you've given to me over these years and I've really learnt a lot of things because of you. You are really an amazing friend with a solid strong character and it's because of you that i'm so crazily in love with badminton. Just want you to know that I'll always be there for you (except when im really busy). Okay, that's all.. Love you my dear twin sis! Happy Birthday!
