im super tired right now. eyes seem to be closing. lucky dere weren't much homework today. had my last training, before competion starts, today. tried out a few doubles combinations. still thinking if i should play doubles or singles for my first match. hmm.. wonder if im up to the mark. should i gamble? haix.. can think till my head explode sia! sianx.. but i think im quite prepared for e competition already. think i've improved since my last match. at least my score when playing wif my team mates shows that either i've improved or they've deproved. think i'll stick to e former one. hee! my right arm seems to be hurting during these few trainings. probably due to nvr warm up b4 playing ba. and today training shuttle cant seem to fly far. which is oso gd in a way la. cox wun hit out ma. hee! trying to get used to my newly restringed rackets. think tension too high le, not enuff strength to make it fly. hope by competition will be okie. first match will be against dunman high on monday. it's e strongest school among e 5 schools i'll be playing wif. so pls help me pray for healing and of cox the team!


weekend's gone and school's here again. tests and more tests. i think im gonna be numb to tests soon. had training today. was quite okie. love my last match to bits! although i lost, but it was a veri gd fight. it's been so long since i last enjoyed badminton so much. the fighting spirit especially. jux by seeing the fire in my opponent's eyes spurs me on to give my all. whoo! that is call badminton! hee!! but my strnig snapped. so i was finding it quite hard to get used to my other racquet. gonna find time to go restring tml.

gotta go do A maths homework le..rates of change..


it's finally the weekends!! Praise The Lord! at last, some time 2 rest my brain. hee! this week has been veri draining and eventful. tests, homework, cca, is all dat floods my mind. phew..finally a break from it all! i dun wanna think too much for now. just wanna spend the weekend doing the things i love the and enjoy the most. and dat includes slping and waking up late! haha!!

oh! and recently i'm crazy about this korean show. it's called "shu tong yao". it's e onli show i watch on tv. hee! love the storyline, love the characters. jux cant get my mind off dat show!! but wad's strange is dat not many ppl r interested in it. hmm.. maybe my taste and others different ba. but to me, this show is definately much nicer and better than "goong". cant wait to get my hands on e dvd! still in e process of saving. hee!

okie, so this weekend is dr. bernard's service. his sermons are so chim, i barely catch anything. hee! hopefully i dun fall aslp...

on e day i came back 2 singapore from bangkok, uncle Sam sent me into e plane. and while waiting 4 e gate 2 open, we were having a conversation about e education system in singapore. he mentioned that singapore's education is so stressful. not onli dat, but teachers tend 2 award marks veri stingily. it's like every compo and compre i barely pass. not onli me, but e average of e cohort is about c5 or c6. wad are they trying to gain by doing this? sometimes i realli dun understand. why are they being so strict and stingy wif e marks? it's like they write on ur compo,"very bad!!! did you even read this before handing it up? it doesn't even make sense!!" and it's underlined too! i mean, to me it makes sense. to me it may have some mistakes but not to e extend of veri bad and failing! by giving remarks like this realli damages my self-esteem. over a period of time it gives me e impression of no matter how hard i try my marks are forever borderline, and it's always not gd enuff. so wad's e point of even trying? when i try, my marks are borderline passes. when i dun try, my marks are still boderline passes. so wad exactly is the singapore government or the school trying to do to the students? trying to wake the them up by writing hurtful remarks in their essays? trying to knock some sense into dem by saying that they are writing completely rubbish? sometimes i realli dun get it. how can my psle score an A but after coming to sec sch it took such a dramatic change to the verge of failing? in e beginning it did knock some sense into me. cox i've nvr expected myself to ever do so badly. but after 4 yrs? each time it jux demoralises me further...

so, think about it. is it realli neccessary to take such measures?


finally received my $150 for good progress this morning. finally got money le! yay! hee! school was okie today except my brain was like kinda slow and i din feel like doing anything. so most of e time i was jux scribbling on whatever notes dat was in front of me or jux folding paper roses. but i got back my first chinese mock exam today and i scored highest in class! whoo! come 2 think of it, it's been like since prehistoric years when i was last top in class for anything. (except for sports of cox!) hee! so for e first chinese mock exam i had a score of 35/46 which is an A1!! yay! Praise The Lord! there r a few ppl tied in second place with a score of 29/46 which is a B4. so im realli thankful to God for all His blessings and abundance dat overflows in my life.

talking about abundance, time seems to be on my side all e time and also an unlimited supply of energy. despite e many things that i nid 2 do everyday, somehow im able 2 fit everything into my given 24hrs. example, normally it will take 7mins for me to walk to e road on my way to school. but these days it onli takes 5 mins or even lesser. and whenever i check my watch, most of e time it's minutes earlier than what i expected. and on mondays and wednesdays when i have badminton training after school, i will not onli be able to finish all my hw and catch my 1 hr of tv before 12am, i will oso not feel e least tired the next day!

apart from all my thanks to God, i will also blog a little about the badminton team.. our competition is on 5th feb which is like 2 weeks away. and first match will be against dunman high. and the schools we will be playing against are...dunman high, tkgs, kc, bedok town sec, bedok north sec.. i think that's all. will update if i remember anymore. hee! and our jersey this year is ORANGE! and it's not colored, but a round neck jersey or rather triangle neck jersey. hahaha! is there such a term? hee! so all e best for e team!

Lord, i thank You for all the blessings that You've poured into my life this year. Thank You for Your abundance that overflows in my life. Lord, i also thank You for Your provision of supernatural strength that beings me through everyday. that despite my busy days, i can always depend on Your provision. for Lord You are a faithful God and will always see me through every situation. so Lord, take all of me, and cause my light to shine ever so brightly for Your glory. that in whatever i do, i may do it to my fullest potential for i know that i do not do it by my strength, but by Your Spirit. and Lord, i also lift the badminton team into Your hands, that You will cause each and every one of us to prosper in whatever that we may do and protect us throughout the competition. Lord i love You, in Jesus name i pray, amen.


finally decided to upload all the pictures in my phone. it's like been accumulating in dere for 3 months.. hee! so here are some of the pictures taken over these months..

guess i shall start with my bangkok trip! here's the view out of e balcony. looking at it kinda made me miss my holidays..

Uncle Eugene's treat! i think it's my second day in bangkok. im in his car while his wife went 2 put some things at home. and his chauffer went out of e car 4 awhile. so i was all alone. hee! btw, dat's thai tea. whenever i go over i'll nvr miss this drink!

this was e stupid restaurant that hai me kena fever the next day. but at least i learnt a lesson to nvr eat smelly fish ever again.

this is e smoking area in e bangkok new airport. took this pic on e day i went 2 phuket. i couldn't tell e difference whether i was indoor or outdoor cox of e cold weather.

the airport view!

e view of one is e islands around phuket.

another island!

Siam Paragon! outside the cinema..

Finally!! candle light service!!

followed by thanksgiving cell group!! introducing the major sadist game..."TWISTER"!!(oops! i think i saw something..haha!!)

how can have have thankgiving without FOOD right? hee!

and finally, sec 1 orientation!

so dat's all for now! the big big small small things these months!

was late 4 e stupid 7:10 morning worksheet again today. sian! den realised i did e wrong homework ques for A maths. so had 2 stay back after sch 2 complete it. so i was late for badminton training. and it rained suddenly while i was rushing home 2 get my badminton stuff. so i walked in e rain 2 training and my feet were all muddy. luckily dere was a "long gou" near e cc where rain water was being drained out. so i could wash my feet and shoes. hee! it's clean rain water!! hahaha!

training was kinda fun today. finally met e new badminton teacher. she's easy going and fun! had a good chat wif her during training. she even cheered me on when i was playing match wif e others. and she praised me too! said i had e talent and should pursue it. haha! so sweet of her! it's realli a blessing 2 have her as e new teacher. although she doesn't play badminton, but it's okie. as long as she has an encouraging spirit!! hee!

oh ya! and im house vice capt this year AGAIN! so sian rite!?! i tot onli 1 yr. den today when e cher called my name i was like so shocked! haha! but doesn't make much diff too. cox i wun be around for all e meetings and selection due 2 me bring tied down by badminton at the moment. hee! but i still find this arrangement veri weird. hee!

jux came back from badminton game wif siang and his uncle. it was fun and veri enjoyable! but it costs me all my energy! i feel so drained, tired, and weak now. i played like 2 sets of singles without any break and like 5 sets of doubles. and dere's still basketball tmomorrow! haha!! wonder if i'll recover my strength on time.

Siang's uncle was veri nice. he offered 2 pay 4 e court and oso treated me and my sis to bubble tea! and while we were sitting at e coffeeshop, we sat at a table wif an unbrella hanging by e edge. i thought dat it was a misplaced umbrella and e owner would come back 4 it later. however to my surprise, a middle aged lady came over and said," my umbrella put dere u never see ah?" i was in shock! cox i still tot dat it was a misplaced umbrella and i was like thinking," how i noe this is ur umbrella? i dun even noe u! and ur umbrella oso nvr write ur name and address! it doesn't even have ur photo!" so i tot e lady had came back 2 retrive her lost umbrella, and i tried 2 pass it 2 her. but she gave me a veri scary glare. and after a few seconds of confusion and bickering, i finally realised dat is was e auntie's tool 2 book e seat. sian right? haha! so siang's uncle was like apologising and stuff. but after e angry auntie left, he told me," next time u tell her, got umbrella means is ur seat ah? here got my saliva leh! so it's my seat oso!" hahaha! dat sure made me feel much better! after being scolded for like no reason. lol! this is like the 4th time im scolded for no reason this year le!!! haix.. im sooo misunderstood! i can taste the injustice within me. hahaha!!

so overall today was quite a good day. except for e chinese mock exam after sch and drawing like 7 graphs during maths lesson. hee!

got back my first A maths test for 2007 today. i got full marks!! yay!! although this is an easy test and quite a few people got full marks, im still veri happy that im able 2 score well! hee! it's always good to have a good start yea? hee hee!!

had another differentiation test today. this topic is giving me headaches. especially on e tangents. it's so difficult 2 understand! it's like 1 big mess of info and u have 2 find your way out of e confusion. haha! makes me feel like a mouse finding it's way 2 e cheese in a maze. hee!

gotta catch some slp soon. tired beat after catching up with holiday homework for 2 weeks. tml's fri! im so looking forward 2 e weekends.. Delirious!!! hahaha!!

went for training today. this is e first time when im so not motivated 2 train or improve my skills. e team is facing a crisis and will confirm close down in 2 to 3 years time. although everybody noes that this coming competition will most probably be e last one we will ever play as a team again, all of dem seem unaffected. at least during training. when e news jux got out, everybody were veri upset and were all complaining. but judging from their attitude at training today, i'd rather they jux sit back and not be upset at all bout e closing down news. they all noe dat e competition is jux weeks away yet they jux wanna play games during trainings.

it's not dat im finding fault with their attitude. it's jux dat im realli not a self-motivating person. i can try, but i guarantee it would not last. actually i realli dun mind if they don't wanna take part in competitons. cox as far as im concerned, my cca points are already sufficient. and this isn't e first time im disappointed with them.

frankly speaking, after today's training, i've almost lost all motivation 2 continue training for this coming competition. since right from e beginning my one and only motivation was e team, now that e team doesn't spur me on anymore, it's really hard 4 me to motivate myself. although i noe this will be e last competition i will play as a team, everyone is depending on me, and e last thing i want is 2 regret not giving my all, it's still veri difficult unless all of these come from other ppl besides me. haix.. im realli lousy at this self-motivating thingy. haha!! but dun worry, im not implying that im losing interest in badminton or anything like dat. if i take part in individual events i will still train my best!

haix..im staring at a blank page loss for words..dun feel like blogging bout my daily activities. dun feel like blogging bout unhappy things or my complaints too. sianz.. im veri tired. so feel like playing badminton now.

now listening to some thai songs. lots of thoughts and feelings running thru my mind. everything seems so uncertain. it's like this year e onli thing i have in plan is to study. but somehow i feel so empty inside. this is when i love listening to thai songs e most. cox i dun understand wad r e lyrics, and can onli flow with e music aimlessly. i noe, this blog entry is getting nowhere too. hee! nvm, shall end here..

sch ended at 330 today. 2nd day of sch den got afternoon prog le. sianz! but chi lesson was fun today. cher tok bout his first love. so funny la!!! made all of us luff till stomachache. oso had differentiation test today. was quite okie i think. hope 2 get all correct. hee!

after sch had 2 help out at sec 1 orientation. need to bring them around 4 their cca talent scouting. veri tiring!!! cox i was in charge of 1n1. their boys crazy 1 sia! but it turned out quite okie in e end. and quite a few ppl from dat class wanna join badminton. but none of dem were in badminton during pri sch. hopefully this year badminton will have good in take ba. BY FAITH! i believe dat dere're many talented players in sec 1 this yr jux waiting 2 be found!! hahaha!!

i pasted some post it cards in my com screen. i wrote my desired O level results of each of dem. i believe dat seeing and believing will make my vision come true! cox last week pastor kong shared bout using ur imagination in this coming year. so i wanna dream big dreams! i wanna get great O level results!

trying 2 finish a bit of my A maths hw now. jux realised my mind is like almost all empty. i noe nuts bout functions and how 2 sketch a function graph. im so dead! and 4 every ques i do i nid 2 read e examples like so many times. looks like this 1 month of holiday has kinda brainwashed me.

sch's gonna reopen tml le. kinda scared 2 face sec 4 life. esp my o levels. thinking of all e tests and studying dat awaits realli sets my heart pumpitating. how come im not scared at all when i had my psle? instead i was veri relaxed when i took my psle. it's like straight As are definate. but now.. frankly im veri uncertain. but by faith im believing God for a single digit score!

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