Sunday, June 28, 2009
♥ 12:23 AM
i found this christian singer called kutless and i like his songs. he sings christian rock, which i find kinda cool. anw, i think that people play a very important role in our christian walk. we all have sth that somebody else doesn't have. may not be material things, may be emotional security, or even a cheerful personality. We have all been given gifts and ability to help someone. i was just reminded of sth pastor tan shared during bible study a few sessions ago( i think ). about using our gifts to bless others. that just like Jesus broke His body for us, we are to do likewise and break our body for others. as in, not literally break, but it means to use our gifts to help others. and that's why we take communion. to remind ourselves that we're supposed to live for others. okay, im tired, im supposed to study but i ended up reading books, reading Bible, re-stringing my guitar, worship and praise a little, and here i am typing. oh man, i desperately need a miracle to regain my confidence for this exam!! Ahhh!!!
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
♥ 11:08 PM
is it just me or is it a girl thing? why cant i seem to make up my mind? like i want this but then i dont really want it. hmm... weird...
okay, knowledge. is knowledge a good thing? is having too much knowledge a good thing? is it necessary to know everything? haha. i believe that knowledge is power. because you can only change sth that you know about. or how know how to go about changing it. if you weren't aware of the disasters around the world, you wouldn't think of sending aid right? and even if you know that there's a disaster, you must know how to or have the capability to send the aid required right? so here's where knowledge is power; the power to change.
what if you have too much knowledge? will it confuse your mind? then isn't it knowing just for the sake of knowing? what use is the knowledge if you cannot apply it in your life? im not really referring to general knowledge here, cox it's important to at least know what's happening in the world. but rather im talking about studying something in detail or knowing some things about somebody. knowledge kinda makes one puff up unless they learn to apply their knowledge in everyday life. i guess for every thing there's a purpose, so that means that us knowing the things that we know is also not coincidental and that we're supposed to do sth about it?
Monday, June 15, 2009
♥ 8:32 PM
recently i've been asked this question a few times. why do i believe in God? How do i know He's not just a figment of my imagination?
well, i remembered a few years back i was brought to this christian bookstore by this friend of mine. and she told me that God was real. but i replied and said," why must there be a God? cant man just live on their own? i only believe in myself and i think that im living a very good life, im satisfied with my life." surprisingly, she did not try very hard to convince me. anw, the point that im trying to make here is that i once doubted God's existence. But now, like what pastor said, to tell me that God does not exist is already too late, because i've already experienced Him. and He's more real to me than any human being is on earth. At least i know that everything about Him, everything in Him, is always looking out for me, taking care of me, loving me, planning a future for me. and His character is perfect, His thoughts about me are always good. Can you say the same about humans? What about your family? or even your closest friends?
then, how do i know that He's not just a person that my imagination came up with or what some people say, pastors brain-wash us to believe that God exists? well, i guess the only way to really feel God's reality is to give Him a chance. it's like if somebody wants to be-friend you but you just keep denying that person and refuse to give that person a chance to be your friend, how then would you know that this person will not turn out to be the best friend you've ever gotten in your entire life?how would you know it cannot work out unless you've tried?
I've said that i could live very well without God right? that was before i gave Him a chance to show me what He can do for me and through me. before i knew God, life was all about myself. i want to get a good education, i want to get a decent job, i want to make lots of money, i want to buy a big house. after that, what? die? game over? come on, you've got to agree with me that this is all physical satisfaction. what about emotional? i want to be filial to my parents, i want to be loyal to my friends. end of the day, you still die, all that you've achieved in life still amounts to nothing. You know, without God in the picture, life is kind of meaningless. it just all ends with nothing. I'm sure every human being has a longing for more. like there's got to be more to life. there's got to be a purpose, there's got to be a reason. and only God can provide the answers to all of this question.
Something that pastor shared which i really liked. He said that some people say," show me Jesus and i'll believe that He exists." You know what? i dont think you'll know it's Him even if He really stands before you right this moment. you'll just think that He's some stranger. ever had a friend walk right pass you or sit right in front of you along the street or on a train and you did not see that person at all? there was once this very close friend of mine smsed me," you just walked right pass me and did not see me." guess what i was doing when i did not see her. i saw this average friend of mine and i decided to walk over to talk to her. all 3 of us were crossing the road. my close friend and this normal friend was crossing towards me and yet i saw my normal friend. What more to say if Jesus appeared at your door step this very instant and told you straight in your face," I am Jesus". i bet you'd still not believe because how would you know if He's really Jesus if you dont even know how He looks like or how He speaks in the first place? Very often it is not what is in front of us that makes the difference. It's what is revealed to us that makes the difference!
Saturday, June 13, 2009
♥ 11:58 PM
okay, firstly, there are a lot of topics that i want to blog about. revelations that i had this week and some devotions and issues and stuff. but! secondly, i have to play with my new toy, thirdly, watch that recorded Aviva open semi finals, and fourth-ly, wake up early to usher tomorrow. life is so exciting! i'll blog about my thoughts some other time. hopefully by tomorrow cox it's just all filled in my mind. sayonara ppl! have a wonderful weekend!
Thursday, June 11, 2009
♥ 9:33 PM
為甚麼神要賜給人朋友？是為了可以互相照應即扶持嗎？那如果你自己覺得幫不了他或他不想你幫，那不是會增加彼此的負擔嗎？我相信在我們生命里出現的每一個人都是上帝派來的， 而在我們在世時他們也會在我們的人生中扮演等等的角色。越是親密，扮演的角色也就越是重要。
我自任是个蠻缺安全感的人。時不時腦袋里會想太多。最近我遇見了從前的一位朋友，一位令我想起蠻多往事的朋友，提醒了我朋友之間為彼此承擔的負擔不是應不應該，而是理所當然。朋友之間一定會為彼此而困惑。儘管自己或對方有再多的不願意，這種負擔是難免的。當不管之時也就是再也不想管的時後了。你知道嗎？這也是我最討厭的部份。想想看，一方面如果你一直為同一個人困惑但時時地沒辦法有突破，令一方面又在想著如果想就不管了，自己又覺得很難脫身，這樣一來其實自己是否比正面臨困境的人更辛苦呢？
okay, actually im speaking in parables. cox i dont even understand what i just typed. haha! Anw, just sth that i thought about on my way home. most of the time we change because of people, because of friends, because of family. God places people around us to help us change, like how iron sharpens iron. different people have different level of influence upon our lives and based on their influence, it will determine the level of change they will bring to us. because no two men are alike, we all have things that we ought to learn from each other and it's based on the level of intimacy of the relationship that we are able to learn from that person.
Tuesday, June 09, 2009
♥ 8:15 PM
okay, im gonna write in chinese today
電器是个很有趣的物品。它對我有一種莫名其妙的吸引力。在這之前我在 apple.com 看到了他們最新的 OSX snow leopard，令我真的真的很動心。 尤其是他們在multi-touch trackpad 和種種系統上做的速度改進真令我想改近我的OS。 我想我可能又要再次對電器上癮了。這絕對不是一個好的現象。
你知不知道圣靈也像電器一樣，有著相同的吸引力，也會令人著迷？
Friday, June 05, 2009
♥ 12:10 AM
oh man, im super tired. had a long long day and im going crazy. haha! i really want to go to sleep now but i have this mind-boggling question... is having attention so important? why do people desire to be noticed so much? why do they wish that people will notice every little thing they do? why do they feel rejected or sad when people do not recognise their works? Is there pride in their lives? or are they just insecure? what if they are unaware that they are insecure? how then do we help them? is there any other reasons other than pride and insecurity behind all these? hmm...
Tuesday, June 02, 2009
♥ 8:40 PM
i was looking at some parents going to pick their kids from the child care centre in e evening and i think that im a timid and insecure person.. hmm..
