Wednesday, August 26, 2009
♥ 11:39 PM
escape. isn't this what a lot of people are trying to do? escape from fear, from stress, basically from facing their emotions. why are people so afraid to admit to the way they are feeling? Is it to protect themselves? Sheryl said that the deepest fear are those we dare not admit and i think there's some truth in it.
Sunday, August 23, 2009
♥ 8:10 PM
actually im quite lazy to blog. Dad just called and asked if i wanna go to Beijing in sept. THIS IS SO TEMPTING! oh man~
okay, i wanted to blog about sth but decided not to cox the words just could not flow
Sunday, August 16, 2009
♥ 11:04 PM
I'm seriously deprived of games! I want to buy a PlayStation 3 after my As!
Monday, August 03, 2009
♥ 9:50 PM
Wisdom is so important. It's so silly sometimes to do things without wisdom. Yes, one may have knowledge, but if you use it at the wrong time, to the wrong person, it will still fail.
I feel that looking at the big picture is one of the most important skills of having wisdom. Sometimes we can get so occupied by looking out for all the tiny little mistakes that we miss out the most important one right in front of us.
Anw, why i'm saying this is cox i was late for school today. i know, it's my fault, and i dont blame anyone for it. and it's my 3rd time so i decided to go to the polyclinic to get an mc in order to not get suspended from school. so i queued at the clinic for more than 2 hours and after that i immediately rushed back to school hoping to catch my last 2 lessons. and guess what? the security guard refused to let me in. so i was thinking of reasons why he would not let me in and the only one i could think of was because i got mc, the school could be afraid that i'd spread the virus to other ppl. so i explained to the security that my mc stated that i had headache. But, he still refused to let me in. so i told him that it's my A level year and asked if he could kindly just allow me to attend my last 2 hour of lessons, and he said the OM would scold him if he did that. and he said that i could only enter the sch at 1pm (which is when sch is over).
okay, after reading my story of that day let me tell you my conclusion. The school system sucks, the rules are unfair and unflexible. firstly, i THINK that moe built schools to educate and discipline us and not to punish us. There's a difference between discipline and punishment. What i had gone through today is obviously punishment. They're punishing me for being late by refusing my entry to the school to attend my lessons. well, i really dont think what i'm saying is rebellious, but i think that i've been punished enough by having to miss my 1st few lessons and spend time and money at the polyclinic. At least i bothered to go back. i could have just gone home after getting the mc. but because i wanted to study so i went back, and they refused me. unreasonable isn't it? Secondly, the system is obviously silly and flawed. you mean to say that i'm not fit for lessons at 11pm but at 1pm im suddenly well enough to come sch? wow, the miracle of 1pm! do you know why is it so silly? Because they just went against their own goal of educating students. As in, every school will want their students to come to sch and attend lessons right? This is the 1st sch I've been to which regards making the students pay for what they've done higher than teaching them not to miss lessons. Next time if im late, i wont even bother going back to school since they wont let me in. Is this what the school is trying to teach at the end of the day? This brings me to the last point. Thirdly, It's so important so know when's the right time to do what and to differentiate between what's more important and what's not. I cant really explain much of this cox it's really wisdom and i dont think it can be taught. It's like when's the right time to scold and when is the right time to teach. I'm not solely referring to the school here. Even for myself i fall into this trap sometimes. It's like i called my mom after i was refused entry. and the 1st thing she said was," who asked you to be late? i told you to wake up earlier" and throughout the whole conversation she just went on and on about me deserving to be punished. it's like adding salt to the wound you know? I was just thinking in my mind," shouldn't she be more concerned about where am I now or even what am i going to do? or if she's sensitive enough, shouldn't she ask if I'm okay or comfort me a little? It's really scary being locked out of school for the 1st time you know? "
The main point is, the school system sucks. and the teachers and students are just so pitiful to be enslaved by this kind of system.
