Friday, April 17, 2009
♥ 11:47 PM
Integrity & Dignity. since primary school i've been taught to choose the former. even in church im taught to forgive and forget. but can you really take it when you choose to make the "right" choice? or the more "big hearted" choice? sometimes it's just so unfair. why? why must the bad people always get their way but those who choose to walk the "right" path dont get what they deserve? why? is it really sufficient to know in my heart that im better and watch others get the reward? sometimes i just feel so indignant and confused. maybe i'm not "big" enough? parents always teach us that winning is not everything. maybe they should tell me that winning is nothing. people always say that as long as we've tried our best and have no regrets it's okay. even i tell people that. but somehow we all know that there's the "if only". why must it always be so close yet so far? is the reward really that important? it's just there, just a breath away, and it slipped right through. it was so real for a moment. all my life, i've never gotten so close to even dream of it and i saw it vanish before my eyes one after another.
Father God, what is it that You want to teach me?
