Sunday, March 01, 2009
♥ 8:17 PM
I love to think back. as in my mind cant help but to revisit the past. i wonder if it's the way God designed me to be. and often i would find a lot of answers. so that's not really that bad i guess.
anyway.. mistakes.. hmm.. i guess we've all made stupid mistakes that when we look back now we think that we're super silly? mistakes when we relate to people, mistakes when we make the wrong choices. But what's worse than making the mistakes is that after we know that we've made e wrong choice, we refuse to accept it and happily continue with it. isn't that silly? and our dear patient daddy God never gives up on correcting our mistakes and He keeps prompting us of this little thorn in our flesh that has to be removed so that we don't end up living our life like a clown. okay, this was not what i intended to blog about but i guess i was just thinking about something and this came out.
i wanted to blog about insecurity. ya, i think im quite an insecure person just that i don't really talk about it. but dont worry, i have my emotions under control. hee! should i go berserk one day and become like super paranoid over every little thing, then please do feel free to handcuff me and bring me to a mental asylum. HAHA! i'm just kidding, please do not do that to me. anw, ya, i really wonder how do people deal with insecurities in their life? can it really be totally solved if we're secure in our identity? maybe about 80%? few days ago while i was walking home, God just began to deal with this insecurity that i'm facing. Most of the time when God speaks to me, i just catch the gist of what He's saying and kinda not bother much about the details. But the Bible says in Deuteronomy 4:2 " You shall not add to the word which I command you, nor take from it, that you may keep the commandments of the Lord your God which I command you." ya, and God just reminded me of a little detail which i kinda missed out. After which, i felt much more secure. so, details are very IMPORTANT! wahahaha!
Anw, another matter.. since my birthday is coming (sadly). im actually quite depressed cox that day is totally packed. and i hate days which are packed. i like some free time which i can play around with. and initially i didn't wanna think of it cox i expect it to be like... ya...whatever.. and e more i think about it, the more sad i'll feel? aiya, but i've decided to for the sake of listing to just list my wish list. i know it's 90% impossible. but it's just for fun. so that i can at least derive some joy. okay here it goes.. (and i'm serious, please do not get me any of these unless you really heard God speak to you)
- Epiphone PR-4E acoustic player pack
- PlayStation 3
- Ipod touch
- that Adidas watch
- Canon 10megapixels SLR camera
- that shiny Yonex badminton shoes
- Yonex Arcsaber 10 SP
Now we all know why i asked you not to get unless God really speaks to you. HAHA! okay, thank you for sparing me 30seconds of ur life reading through this list, and fulfilling my 10 seconds of joy. wahahaha! bye bye people!
