Saturday, January 31, 2009
♥ 11:23 PM
Training... training... and more training.. hmm..
Thursday, January 29, 2009
♥ 11:42 PM
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
♥ 11:33 PM
Okay, i totally love this song right now. ya, it's a chinese worship song. It just reminds me of how faithful God is and how cox of His love everything that im doing now, and my plans for the future is possible.
你愛使我甦醒重新來過
深切渴望能活在你手中
生命跟隨你跳動
夢想因你而啟動
所有一切交給你
毫無保留
讓我為你而活
讓我為你而站立
永不放棄像你愛我
讓我為你前進
我氣息是你贖回
如今單單屬於你
活出你旨意的生命
改變世界為你轉動
轉動的夢想
實現著希望
我已看見永恆的光芒
光芒在 我心上
在世界綻放
讓我為你照亮
It's really weird to see how people change sometimes, how people choose different paths. but isn't change a part of growing up? then why does it feel so strange, and often comes with this nostalgic feeling? weird...
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Tuesday, January 20, 2009
♥ 11:40 PM
wow.. i realised a lot of people are reading my blog, even people whom i didn't give my blog address to?.. hmm.. a bit scary. haha.
sch was okay, quite interesting. and i'm starting to love GP. just had a deadly training yesterday. ya, DEADLY... de-proved for my 2.4. from 1145 to 1209. ya, that's terrible. and my physical standards are like... terrible too.
and im feeling much better now. i started out the week like a zombie. haha. but somehow i felt like paying attention and learning during lessons. so these 2 days were very fruitful! and i thank God that He places people in my life to really make my day. ya, my tpjc.net inbox is like spammed with emails from the ogls.
I seriously love my new sofa!!! been sleeping on it every day since sunday. HAHA. oh oh! and from now on, cell group is gonna be on the sofa! yeah! hooray! but im a little worried.. you know what happens when people pray la hor.. HAHA!
hope this year's badminton nationals is after canoeing nationals. cox i wanna compete!!
Sunday, January 18, 2009
♥ 9:46 PM
Okay, i'm sooooooo glad that the ogl camp is over!!! im like counting down to every second of it. okay, a few things happened good and bad. but im not gonna elaborate here. anw, i guess i enjoyed myself and was quite happy and satisfied at the end of it. Anw, my house won the overall champion, and i really have no idea how we did it when we like lose in almost every thing except for like those with major points. which is like...2 competitions? so yea, the camp was okay overall. and the only part i liked was the mass dance.
and... I've decided not to be an ogl. ya, i opted out. it's not that im not a good finisher or what, but throughout this camp i just feel that this is not something that i should plunge into right now. and it's not worth it. so yea, wasting 3 days is more than enough. might as well cut short the pain instead of hanging there just because it'll be a waste if i drop out after half of it is done. seriously, i cant survive camps. and to go for this camp has really a high price to pay. 1 training + 1 church service.
But! although i've learnt certain values the hard way through hang on these 3 days, i thank God that i did learn something. ya, i think my level of perseverance and patience like increased tremendously. because i requested to leave on the 1st day and was rejected by the teachers and had to tahan till the 3rd day. and of course leadership skills, made new friends, and blah blah blah..
okay, time to sleep! im like super stressed!!!! whaaaaa............
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
♥ 10:58 PM
mommy's been telling me the world is getting colder by the years. she said thailand is like 15 degrees? maybe by next year thailand will have a ski resort. i wish. haha. talking about that, i just changed my desktop wallpaper to the ski school at Breckenridge Colorado. oh man, how i miss that place. one day im gonna have my own set of ski and snowboard. woahx. cant wait for that day. I want to go skiing!!!
♥ 8:17 PM
im just in such a dilemma looking at this picture. wondering how i should feel, how i should look at this accident. cant help thinking if it's intentional. haix.. i know it's about time i let it go, but still.. that day just keeps playing over and over again in my head like a broken tape recorder. all the "what ifs". and there's this splinter in my finger, a souvenir from my broken boat. and i cant get it out of my finger. thorn in my flesh, just like the incident. haix.. i need to unwind.
Habakkuk 3:17-18
Though the fig tree may not blossom, Nor fruit be on the vines; Though the labour of the olive may fail, And the fields yield no food; Though the flock may be cut off from the fold, And here be no herd in the stalls- Yet I will rejoice in the Lord, I will joy in the God of my salvation.
Sunday, January 11, 2009
♥ 10:25 PM
love = commitment
Is it even possible to love someone without committing to that person? then is that still love? if it's not, then what is it?
okay, today race was... unspeakable, indescribable, lost for words. ya. that's all. bye bye.
Friday, January 09, 2009
♥ 12:51 AM
wow. it's been a very tiring night and day. ya, night and day cox i'm referring to yesterday night and today. haha! went sing K with a few of the cell group members yesterday night till 12am. and to my horror! there wasn't any more bus home! ya i know, best. but luckily there was still bus to my grandmother's place. so i called and thank God they were at home. if not i'd be stranded. wahaha! so i spent the night there and only reached home this morning.
glad i'm quite over with the OGL thingy cox initially i can't decide. now i just have to think how to tell mr chua, which is actually the hardest part. wanted to break the news to him when i meet him to sign the indemnity form in the afternoon but ended up waiting for 30mins and he rushed out of sch to sign it and had to rush back.
then went for the canoe marathon meeting thingy which was kinda draggy but cool too. ya, cox i made 2 new friends from hua chong and even better, one of them is my competitor on sunday. went to have a drink after the meeting and lo and behold! we meet again. ya, so we chatted with the hua chong girls till 10+? reached back pasir ris and continued part two of feasting and chatting. (being a typical city harvester) reached home, settled the marathon stuff and here i am blogging and it's already 1am and i've not yet bathe! shucks!
Monday, January 05, 2009
♥ 10:30 PM
i just watched this tv show and they were talking about having trust. suddenly this word "trust" reminds me of a few incidents. hmm.. maybe this is what God wants me to learn this year? haha. i guess so.
okay, today's training was er.. hmm.. terrible? haha. ya. only paddled 2km and im like gonna die. i was freezing when i started out and after 1 km my body started to kinda heat up real quickly. ya, and i really hate the feeling of being breathless. it's like the signal of defeat. haix.. ya. terrible, horrible. plus i cut my leg. extra horrible. haha. and somehow all the guys think that im injured? double the weirdness..
Sunday, January 04, 2009
♥ 11:18 PM
Completely- Ana lauraThe secret of life is letting go
The secret of love is letting it show
In all that I do
In all that I say
Right here in this moment
The power of prayer is in a humble cry
The power of change is in giving my life
And laying it down
Down at your feet
Right here in this moment
chorus:
Take my heart
Take my soul
I surrender everything to your control
And let all that is within me lift up to you and say
I am yours and yours alone
Completely
This journey of life is a search for truth
This journey of faith is following you
Every step of the way
Through the joy and the pain
Right here in this moment
Right here, right now, and for the rest of my life
Hear me say
I am yours and yours alone
Completely
hmm.. I feel that i need a change this year. some things just cannot be kept the same as they were before. And this song just reminds me.. it says the power of change is in giving my life. does it mean that when one is reluctant to change, he or she is also not fully surrendered to the Lord? well, this has been a burden in my heart for quite long already i just don't really talk about it. haha. sometimes i really don't understand if it's personality or pure stubbornness. i wish i knew how to help.
Frankly speaking, i'm coming to the end of the line. i cant wait forever. If things are gonna remain this way, im gonna let go, and i trust that God will catch me when i fall. yes, i will feel insecure. but isn't that what FAITH is all about? Forsaking All I Trust Him? haha.
it's gonna be a wonderful year of breakthroughs.
Saturday, January 03, 2009
♥ 11:00 PM
first post of 2009.
the countdown was quite cool and interesting. had class chalet. well, some interesting things happened at the chalet.. food and present disappeared after the movie. HAHA! guess our neighbours had a big appetite. lol.
okay, i haven't thought of my new year resolutions yet. best, i know. hmm, im definitely looking forward to some really big breakthroughs this year. shall not disclose yet, will pray about it.
More importantly, i need a new vision! I need something to start happening in my life!
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