Monday, July 30, 2007
♥ 10:04 PM
so many thoughts and feelings are running through my mind now. dere are so many things i wanna say, so many thoughts and feelings inside dat i wanna let out. it's as though im screaming on the inside. as the final countdown begins, my heart cant help but beat faster. i realli cant believe it, all these 4 years, i nvr tot that this day would realli come so quickly. i'm so looking forward to the outcome. how i wish i can speed up time. or maybe not. it's jux a bunch of mixed feelings inside me. i can onli be myself in front of my Abba Father now. He knows best wad's going on. although dere are ppl who knows bout it, i can nvr realli be myself and tell dem all im experiencing inside. maybe they are insensitive to my needs, maybe they are busy? i realli duno. but it's jux not the same.
how i long for somebody to speak to. Father, keep me strong in You through this final lap. i want to be a good finisher for Christ.
just read xiangcen's blog and she mentioned dat a smile can realli make a difference. reading her blog just makes my day. never fails to make me smile. cox the things dat she blog about are jux so funni and interesting. esp all e food. muahaha! anyway, dat statement bout a smile making a difference, it reminds me of my da zhu. who sky fall down oso can smile. makes me feel much better. if she can be strong despite all dat she went thru, i can do it too! The Joy Of The Lord Shall Be My Strength! gonna go pray and head to bed, good nitez ppl!
