Tuesday, November 21, 2006
♥ 9:08 PM
jux came back from work and badminton. work was okie.. i managed 2 get 30 votes!! not bad 4 a first timer at no-man's land. hee! badminton was okie too although i lost 2 a dumb fat guy. i was jux scanning thru some blogs when i came upon aaron's. yup.. e dancer /beat-boxer /guitarist from N276. he mentioned dat he went 2 a performance and tot 2 himself dat e dancers were more than dancers but performers. and dat how different are they from him dat they can achieve such heights. he did a few comparisons and this made me think 2 myself too.. im a badminton player, seeded players are oso badminton players. we all share e same passion 4 e sport, we all train hard. lets see wad r some areas dat im different from dem.. they have a coach, i dun have. they train everyday, i onli train 3 times a week. they are taller, i am shorter. but i have a bunch of frens dat support me with all their hearts no matter i win or lose. my parents dun pressure me, and most importantly, i have my Great Big Daddy God with me. besides, 3 trainings per week is quite sufficient isn't it? and i play e best i noe how. sometimes i realli dun quite understand.. izzit realli e coaching and training dat matters? my skills can be comparable 2 dem, but i lose out during tournaments. why is this so? is it complacency? am i scared? or am i always rushing into things? hmm...okie. so i guess my match is tml and i dun have much time le. getting kinda nervous jux thinking bout it. chan liying..ex tkgs player..jc 1 now. can i do it? do i have wad it takes? will i freak out when i see her? will i cry if i lose? i realli duno. after i lost e match against e fatty uncle jux now i went out 2 pray a little, looking for answers. and God said.."calista, be still". so i guess this is wad it's all about? being calm when im unsure and jux give my all? so b4 i played e second set i can feel e peace of e Holy Spirit filling me. and i played much better.. although i still lost. hee! and i felt much more satisfied with myself. so i think this will be e way im gonna fight tml.. all 3 matches.. with e peace, strength, blessing, and annointing of God...and E151.. thanks for ur smses!!! realli appreciated dem.. and a million thanks wan li!!!! for informing e cg bout my matches.. im realli blessed 2 have you as my fren!!! pls keep me in prayers cox im kinda off form and not realli feeling well.. although it's much better than yest:)
