Wednesday, April 12, 2006
♥ 9:34 PM
today my fren told me everybody hates me after i changed my grp of frenz. it's not e first time, but each time she says it, those words realli pierced deep into my heart. it's like.. i changed my grp of frenz n coz of dat ppl think dat i've changed, n they hate me. why? wad have i done wrong? they said i ignore dem. since when? i realli didn't hear dem call me. e canteen is so noisy how do u expect me 2 hear when im toking 2 another fren? i realli feel veri miserable.. dun i have e freedom 2 choose? y r ppl hating me!? even those i barely greet in sch said dat i changed. did i? i changed frnz juz coz i juz dun feel comfortable wif dem, i cant get wad i nid out of e relationship and most of all they r not realli ppl dat r FOR God. they always find ways 2 debate wif me, till im so sick of it i juz listen 2 to dem. when im wif this grp of frenz i feel like im competing wif dem. but im looking 4 a grp of ppl dat will love me 4 who i am n will support me 100% in wadeva im doing. i realli dun nid extra stress from all e competition. it's like i felt so free after i left dem. n my new grp of frenz r ppl dat r For God. i personally felt dat i made e right decision. but ppl hate me? they used e word "hate"!!! this i realli dun understand. wad have i done dat is so wrong they hate me!? wad should i do? i feel so lost....
