Thursday, April 13, 2006
♥ 7:51 PM
today went 2 support sch volleyball team in e fianls. hai sing volleyball realli no spirit 1. see dem play i oso dun feel like cheering. they lost 2 xin min. den after dat watched e gals finals. jss against phs. woahx! as i was seeing e gal's match they realli showed me e spirit of nvr say die. they unlike e boys will go all out 2 make sure e ball dun drop. n e jurong sec players reminded me of my badm team when i was in sec 1. they were lagging beind in e 2nd set. but e capt did not give up, instead she kept encouraging her players. i can realli see e love they had in dat team. looking at all e supports surrounding e stadium i thought 2 myself, can hai sing badminton ever achieve this? i highly doubt so. and i oso realised dat hai sing kids r realli brainless. after e prize presentation e national anthem is played. everybody is veri solemn looking, but hai sing kids were fooling around. not onli did they not stand straight, they were shouting n making fun, singing loudly n disorderly at each other. at dat moment i realli wanted 2 find a hole on e floor n hide my face inside. it's a total embarrassment! in front of all e champion schs, hai sing was behaving like a monkey! i cant believe how immature haisians can be! today morning had pe lesson. we played floorball. my thumb kena whacked by e stick. e part where e flesh connects 2 e nail duno fly go where le. it was sooo painful!! at first when juz kena no blood but veri super pain!! it's like my whole thumb went numb. den bout 5sec later got blood le. b4 i knew it everybody was surrounding me. i did not even now who hit me! straight after e hit all i did was stare at my thumb n grab it veri tightly. i ran into e general office n 3 st johns from my class tried 2 help me. e first thing they asked me 2 do was 2 wash my wound. my reaction was like .. huh!? wad e!?! cannot cannot!! den finally i washed n they tried 2 put medicine on my thumb wif me objecting 2 everything they say. hahaha! den coincidentally pricipal came in. she looked at my finger n gave me those " eeee!" kinda look. den i was like.." cham liao.." throughout e whole first aid process i was crying like a baby in e sick bay. i was so paiseh i didn't wanna get out of e sick bay. but my finger was still veri pain!! i can barely hold e pen, i cant hold anything wif my right hand, and worst of all.. next mon is inter class capt. netball n i m capt of e team! how 2 play like dat!?!? so pls pls pray 4 my finger!!! n oso pray 4 my spelling bee!!!
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
♥ 9:34 PM
today my fren told me everybody hates me after i changed my grp of frenz. it's not e first time, but each time she says it, those words realli pierced deep into my heart. it's like.. i changed my grp of frenz n coz of dat ppl think dat i've changed, n they hate me. why? wad have i done wrong? they said i ignore dem. since when? i realli didn't hear dem call me. e canteen is so noisy how do u expect me 2 hear when im toking 2 another fren? i realli feel veri miserable.. dun i have e freedom 2 choose? y r ppl hating me!? even those i barely greet in sch said dat i changed. did i? i changed frnz juz coz i juz dun feel comfortable wif dem, i cant get wad i nid out of e relationship and most of all they r not realli ppl dat r FOR God. they always find ways 2 debate wif me, till im so sick of it i juz listen 2 to dem. when im wif this grp of frenz i feel like im competing wif dem. but im looking 4 a grp of ppl dat will love me 4 who i am n will support me 100% in wadeva im doing. i realli dun nid extra stress from all e competition. it's like i felt so free after i left dem. n my new grp of frenz r ppl dat r For God. i personally felt dat i made e right decision. but ppl hate me? they used e word "hate"!!! this i realli dun understand. wad have i done dat is so wrong they hate me!? wad should i do? i feel so lost....
