WOULD YOU BELIEVE ME IF I SAID THAT WE ARE THE ONES WHO CAN MAKE THE CHANGE IN THE WORLD TODAY
WOULD YOU BELIEVE ME IF I SAID THAT ALL OF THE DREAMS IN YOUR HEART CAN COME TRUE TODAY
WOULD YOU BELIEVE ME IF I SAID THAT LIFE CAN BE ALL THAT YOU WANT IT TO BE TODAY
AND IF I HAD WINGS I WOULD FLY 'CAUSE ALL THAT I NEED, YOU ARE AND IF THE WORLD CAVED IN AROUND ME TO YOU I'D STILL HOLD ON 'CAUSE YOU'RE ALL THAT I BELIEVE AND THE ONE THAT CREATED ME JESUS, BECAUSE OF YOU I'M FREE
WOULD YOU BELIEVE ME IF I SAID THAT GOD CAN MAKE MIRACLES HAPPEN TODAY WOULD YOU BELIEVE ME IF I SAID THAT YOU DON'T NEED TO WAIT FOR THE ANSWERS BEFORE YOU STEP OUT IN FAITH
WOULD YOU BELIEVE ME IF I SAID THAT NOTHING IS EVER IMPOSSIBLE FOR GOD
JUST LIVE YOUR LIFE WITH GOD INSIDE YOU WON'T REGRET ONE MOMENT OF IT AND GIVE ALL THAT YOU CAN FOR GOD FOR GOD
Monday, November 09, 2009
♥ 6:34 PM
You know why A level isn't scary? because my Father set it.
I'm not prepared. I know no matter how much time I'm given to prepare, I never will be. But that's the way my Daddy works. He doesn't put me through any test or exam, or ask me to do anything that I feel that I'm well prepared or well skilled for. He knows how I work. He knows that if He sends me a task that i can accomplish with my own capabilities, I will become proud. So He always sends the "impossible" and work on it with me. This way, it brings the both of us closer and i can accomplish the task without falling into pride. plus, when my Daddy does something, He doesn't just do it mediocrely, He makes sure the work is excellent.
Sunday, November 08, 2009
♥ 11:02 PM
Something interesting that i learnt this week...
God knows how we humans are wired up. He knows that if we can earn money/ work for 7 days a week, 24 hours a day, we will. That's why He gave us the commandment to remember the sabbath day by keeping it holy. from monday to saturday, we are working, and so is God. But He rests on the seventh day. So what makes you think if you work on the seventh day, God will work with you?
Thursday, November 05, 2009
♥ 10:49 PM
money, is it really so important? What's with that few pieces of paper if it's not a matter of life and death? why are people so self-centered when it comes to money? come on, there's so much that you're missing out on if all you think about of is yourself and your money. gosh! i know that you're trying to do something. but has it ever occurred to you that I'm also trying to do sth here and it's much more urgent and important?? how difficult is it to see that I'm kind of struggling and the least you can do is to leave me alone? argh!!
a person's maturity can be seen from the standards of priority they hold in their life. what's important, what's urgent. i really cant stress this enough. sometimes i wonder. is it really so difficult so judge what's important and what's urgent? i guess i really really need to be more patient, understanding and wise. or i'll explode.
Tuesday, November 03, 2009
♥ 10:24 PM
human beings. when will we start saying what we mean and what what we say? i think at least 90% of us fall into the category of merely offering lip service. we say we'll be at a certain place at a certain time but we're late. we always tell our friends," we'll meet up soon yea?" but we really dont want to free up time to meet them. how about this? we tell God," God, we love You, we give our lives to You, we're fully committed to You." but how much of it do we really mean what we say?
I conclude, all human beings are selfish. haha. Truth is, most of the things we do are driven by fear. we fear losing our "face" so we act friendly. we fear going to hell, so we decide to turn to faith. we fear being alone so we find friends. we fear rejection, so we live by "obligation".
end of the day, we all get to choose. and our so called " obligation" is us choosing fear over what our heart wants us to do.
so then, what kind of fear do you have?
Monday, October 26, 2009
♥ 10:14 PM
there's this article in the latest broader perspective issue which talks about taking responsibility i think there's a lot of truth in that article. But one thing which really stood out to me was this line," If a husband claims that he loves his wife, but his wife doesn't feel loved, the husband does not love the wife."
I've been thinking about this for a few days now and I've decided to accept the fact that this statement may not necessarily be right. Initially when i read this, i really agreed with it because i believe that love should be tangible, real and evident. As in, i believe that the extend of one's love for somebody can be seen/ measured by the amount of time they spend/ the things they give each other/ the thoughts they share because if you really think about it, it seems very natural that if you love someone, you'll want to spend time with them, you'll want to give them priority over yourself, you'll give them the best gifts you can possibly give.
But today i realised that this may not be true. Each person has their own love language. and your love language may not be the same as the person you love. if to that person sharing things or incidents, basically telling you every important event in that person's life, is something that is considered very intimate, but on your part you feel that it's the most basic and normal thing and it's insufficient to make you feel important, isn't it a little unfair to that person to say that he/ she does not think that you are important? so in this case, to better gauge how important you are, maybe it's better to find out whether the things this person does for you makes him/ her more vulnerable to you compared to other people.
But then again, if someone tells you that he/ she does not feel important/ loved, maybe it's really time to find out where has things gone wrong, or maybe put in the extra effort to make things work? cox i think that if someone even bothers to raise the issue means that not all is gone and there's still room for improvement. well, end of the day, i think what's most important is to be real to yourself and others.
anw, to you, sorry. you are very important to me. really. but i like the way things are now. hope that things work out for you and js (:
Friday, October 16, 2009
♥ 9:07 PM
Since it's graduation day, i shall write sth for 08S07.
Actually yesterday when we went K i wanted to sing you girls this song but i was too shy. so just listen to the original okay? i think it pretty much expresses what i want to say
This translation is specially done for the convenience of Queennie(:
Thank you for walking this journey with me and light up my days when it seems so dark. Because of the care and concern from you girls I am able to have more courage. Thank you for accompanying me, for showing the most truthful and honest side of you. Time can wait, let our thoughts be warmed by love, let the coldness of our happiness be rejuvenated. It's you, who silently placed blessings into my hands, like the wind blowing the clouds always without a trace. I close my eyes and i can feel you so clearly. It's you, who gently wrote happiness into my expression.
i know my translation kind sucks. but it's e thought that counts right? this kind of thing only comes once in a lifetime so treasure it okay!
♥ 6:45 PM
What's important? What's urgent? What's important and urgent? What's more important and urgent?
why do i still feel so tired? humans... how can God stand us when we're so imperfect? the things we do to each other can already be so hurting/ rejecting/ disappointing, let alone the accumulation of every single one of our wrongdoings to God. How does He do it? Is it because He knows everything?
I feel like i'm doing it all over again. now im back to where i started.
Sunday, October 11, 2009
♥ 7:15 PM
i was watching some christian youtube videos and i find some things which were mentioned kinda funny. there was this guy who is a christian and he's very anti-atheist. however i find his arguments kind of flawed. as in for everything ranging from whether God exists, evolution, turning water into wine, and many other questions and Bible examples he brought up, he merely refuted them by saying that it's all not true cox the Bible says so. haha. it's not that i disagree with him that God exists and blah blah blah. but i just found it kinda silly that he used the Bible as the main argument point since atheists regards the Bible as any ordinary book found in book stores. so i was just thinking from an atheist point of view and found it kind of silly. cox can you imagine if you just pick any book from the shelves and it tells you that your dog has supernatural powers and you believe it with all your heart without having any concrete evidence? silly isn't it? haha.
Anyway, i was supposed to find some stuff about science and religion. so i decided to comment a little about it here. i believe in evolution. and i also believe that God created man in his image, not as monkeys. well, darwin says that everything existing goes through a process called natural selection right? he's right. even as humans we observe very strong competition, leading to survival of the fittest. however, i really dont think that we came all the way from monkeys. as in there are even lizards or insects which share 90+% genetic similarity compared to human genes. so our relatives are insects? HAHA! well, i believe that the reason for these genetic similarities is that our God is a consistent God. there're certain genes which codes for certain proteins which makes up our body (phenotype). eg, membranes are universal, specific enzymes are universal. and these proteins are necessary in ALL living organisms. if not how can lucky digest his food? so that means that both my dog and i share similar genes. but that doesn't mean we evolved from one organism. it only means that we originate from the consistent mind of the same one God who created the world.
end of the day, God created everything right? so, every idea, invention, theory, conjured by human mind, God allowed it. so anw, that's my stand and i feel that it makes much more sense than just saying," we did not originate from monkeys because the Bible says so." (:
Thursday, September 24, 2009
♥ 9:20 PM
i think this song is kinda nice and encouraging
♥ 8:32 PM
something to hold on, something to hope for, something to look forward to, something to lessen this load, something practical, something that is secure, something that makes me happy.
nevermind. i just need a holiday, a break, a vacation, a time out, or in my dictionary, an escape from reality.
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
♥ 5:43 PM
one thing i can never understand. why do people use vulgarities? cox it's cool? cox it's fun? cox it's the only word that can express the way you're feeling?
this is bad man. not "bad" as in sheryl's "bad" but really bad.
well, personally i just feel that it's not only crude. that's too minor. it's revolting, it's demeaning, it just shows how little EQ do you have, and it's insulting to your level of intelligence. as in, do you even know what are you saying? do you truly understand the meaning behind those words and mean what you say? okay, i admit im kinda pissed while typing this.
anw, for ppl who have poor anger management, doesn't mean that when you're angry you can just say whatever you wanna say and insult whoever you wanna insult! come on, just record yourself speaking when you're angry and you'll get what im trying to say. it's just so provoking and upsetting to hear! as in, even though the person you're cursing is not me, it's disturbing to even hear! oh man... im gonna puke...
well, for a start, maybe you can just focus in on the problem and just discuss about it. dont go from yesterday to last month to even last year or even better, try to predict the future. this is insane! and when solutions are given to you, dont give too much "buts" cox it just makes the other person not interested to listen anymore. okay, let's say you just want to rant and dont need any solutions. then just rant, but dont rant on and on and on about the same thing! just say what happened, why are you angry, what do you think could have been done, and what do you think can be done now, and FULLSTOP! dont start judging and cursing and swearing and comparing cox it's incredibly uncomfortable to hear! okay, im done pouring out my frustration. some prelim results are out and it's a little disappointing but it's okay (: no regrets! just move on!
Thursday, September 17, 2009
♥ 6:10 PM
okay.. prelims are over. but A level is coming.
i can sense the doom for my prelims. As in after losing 15 marks of vectors today, ya, kinda screwed. you know what? i was so careless i did this... 500= 500 x 0. awesome right? and cox this is (ai), the rest dont need to say liao. oh man, and i was so confident for vectors. nvm, like what they say, at least now i know how careless i can get, i wont repeat my mistakes during the A's.
But the good news is that i feel much more comfortable with my subjects now ( except econs ). at least it's no longer " i dont know how to finish" but rather " i have not enough time to finish". Although this exam seems like the best i've taken so far, i doubt my results will be much better.
Monday, September 14, 2009
♥ 8:16 PM
okay, after blogging about miscellaneous stuff, let's talk about sth else.
purpose. well, i believe that for everything there's a purpose, for everybody there's also a purpose. it all depends on whether we wanna hold on to that purpose no matter what.
for everything that happens in life, there's a good purpose to it. if we happen to find it and hold on to it, no matter how shitty life becomes, we'll be thankful that it happened. ppl give up when they lose sight of the positive purpose behind it. sure, it's easy to know it when everything's going well, but it's when the test comes will it all be shaken.
then there's this other thing called the higher purpose. when we find the higher purpose, our problems start to seem smaller. it's like looking at things from an airplane, it all seems within your hands.
similarly for humans, we all have purposes in each other's lives. find it, hold on to it, get the best out of it.
well then, can purposes be lost? yes, if we choose to abuse it. but the good news is, it is always there, somewhere, waiting for us to find it back.
anw, just to side track, pastor was preaching about loyalty last week. He talked about Ruth being loyal to Naomi, and her vows to her. and pastor was just saying that should be the way we relate to one another. yes! i fully agree with him! for a start, wouldn't it be so securing to know that the ppl whom you're mixing around with, are ppl like Ruth? ppl who trusts you no matter what, choose to stick to you when life gives them a million reasons not to, choose to honor whatever and whoever you honor? amazing isn't it? life's simple, that's what everybody wants. if you can do it, you can be a best friend to anybody. the sad part is that not many of us are like Ruth. We give in when life gives us reasons to, we choose to get more than we give, we want things our way and find it hard to like the things the other person likes. like what my favourite person in singapore now says," it's all about me!" then comes her other favourite sentence," you know, BOOMS!" wow! how amazingly sensible these two sentences make sense here. hahaha. okay, enough of goofing around. life rocks!
♥ 8:03 PM
oh man... at a time like now i should be studying for my econs paper tml. but then again, maths kinda drained the crap out of me, so im here, erm... doing what i'm not supposed to be doing. but surprisingly, there's some hope in me passing the paper. as in, vectors kinda shocked me cox what usually would weigh like 12 marks came out only er... 6 marks this time? shocked me real good cox that's my best topic and even if i get the full marks, it'll only be 6/100. oh man.. paper 2 better have at least 20 marks of vectors. actually im kinda thankful for going for tuition. cox i think if this time round i pass everything, it's all because of tuition. maths tuition saved 14/20 marks for my last question, sequence and series. still cant believe they tested 20 marks on that. wow!
i realised this prelims is all about the tiny topics and details that you'll pay attention to when you have a microscopic brain.
i realised i havent said this for a long time... Jia You Bubu!
Wednesday, September 09, 2009
♥ 11:06 PM
for once i feel saturated and overwhelmed from studying bio. interleukin-2 receptor gamma chain is driving me nuts. HAHA
Tuesday, September 08, 2009
♥ 2:23 PM
This post is intended for all the students in E449. But if you're a student, i believe that you will also be encouraged (:
As the exams are drawing near, be it N levels, O levels, Promos, A levels, or whatever exams you are going through in life, sometimes people tend to feel tired, stretched, stressed out. And the thoughts that are constantly on our minds are thoughts of negativity, defeat, uncertainty, doubt. Let me assure you, THIS IS NOT THE WILL OF GOD for your life.
As a student, our primary calling and season before anything else is to do well in our studies. Because it is our primary calling, God will do everything He can to help us do well. Be assured that He will not leave us alone to fend for ourselves. The Bible says that He will never leave us nor forsake us.
Matt 6:33
But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.
What's your purpose of studying? For myself, i started studying because God asked me to. I wanted to do well for my studies so that i can glorify Him. If you'd known me since primary school, i was not studious at all. it was not until i had this new mindset that i tried to study. For us, our priority should be God, studies, then everything else. Even church ministry comes after studies. God is a good Father, He wants us to be happy and live a good life. Everybody wants to do well in studies, who doesn't? Will you be happy if you'd done badly? Will your parents be happy when you fail? Will your friends and teachers be proud of you? nope. Simple as that. God is glorified when everybody is happy. So dont even think for one second that God is okay with us compromising on our studies to serve Him or His people. His plans and desires are only good and wonderful towards us. Don't worry that He'll not come true for you if you put Him first and desire to do well in your studies. Dont be crippled by fear. But the Bible says that we are more than conquerors in Christ! Dont be afraid of any paper, just study the BEST you can for it, go and take it with confidence, leave the examination hall without having regrets, and tell yourself," I've done my best. I'll let God do the rest."
Jia You guys! I know we can do it!
Matt 19:26 Jesus looked at them and said, "With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible."
Sunday, September 06, 2009
♥ 9:13 PM
confusion. i knew this post was coming. i could sense it. haha.
why cant things be defined as yes or no? this way, life can be so much simpler since everything is definite, even the Bible agrees with this in a sense by saying be either hot or cold and not luke warm. but then again, by putting a definite answer to everything makes us legalistic and nobody likes rules. so how?
Times like these we end up in confusion. Actually, if you take a closer look at it, confusion comes when one chooses to escape from making decisions or they are afraid that the decision they would make will not be one they may like, hence the term used to describe this kind of feeling.. confusion. So in this sense it's not really good to be confused right? since it's merely used as a form of escape from reality, refusing to acknowledge either of the opportunity cost you have to pay.
Seriously, im confused about certain issues. maybe it's really because i refuse to define it and move on to other stuff. the same thing has been on my mind these few months. maybe im supposed to have some answers or it's trying to force me into defining it. but i dont think i want an answer. you know like how some ppl are addicted to being emo? i think im addicted to being confused. oh man...
Tuesday, September 01, 2009
♥ 3:37 PM
here's sth i've read from pastor's daily devotion which i felt is very good (:
And especially those who walk according to the flesh in the lust of uncleanness and despise authority. They are presumptuous, self-willed … 2 Peter 2:10
David prayed, “Keep back Your servant also from presumptuous sins; let them not have dominion over me. Then I shall be blameless, and I shall be innocent of great transgression” (Ps. 19:13). As we live our lives by faith, we have to understand the difference between faith and presumption: Faith is a response to the initiative of God. Presumption takes the initiative away from God so that the believer acts on his own initiative. Presumption is acting according to our own human will. “But they continued to sin against Him, rebelling in the desert against the Most High. They willfully put God to the test by demanding the food they craved” (Ps. 78:17-18, NIV). Presumption is a sin against God. In almost all cases, presumption is classified as such a deadly sin, it is punishable by death! Presumption is linked to the Word of God in two ways: (1) To claim a prophecy to be a Word of the Lord when it is not, often leading to death (Deut. 18:20, 22). (2) To overstep the Word of the Lord and to do beyond what His Word has said, often leading to destruction (Num. 14). There are various occasions of presumptuous sin recorded in the Bible: (1) The presumptuous sin of the children of Israel (Num. 14:39-45). (2) The presumptuous sin of Saul (1 Sam. 13:8-14). (3) The presumptuous sin of David (2 Sam. 6:1-7). While faith recognizes and yields to God’s sovereign will, presumption asserts selfwill. Faith is totally dependant on God and His rhema-Word, but presumption is dependant on our own interpretation of the logos. Faith will bear fruits that glorify God, but presumption contains an element of human arrogance and self-glorifi cation. Faith is yielding to God, but presumption demands, compels, forces and insists. So how can a Christian avoid presumption? (1) Line-up your faith with the whole counsel of God’s Word. (2) Do not do anything hastily (Prov. 20:21; 25:8, Eccl. 5:2). (3) Never impose your faith on others (Rom. 12:3). (4) Live at your own level of faith (12:6). (5) Always remember that in the multitude of counselors there is safety (Prov. 11:14).
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
♥ 11:39 PM
escape. isn't this what a lot of people are trying to do? escape from fear, from stress, basically from facing their emotions. why are people so afraid to admit to the way they are feeling? Is it to protect themselves? Sheryl said that the deepest fear are those we dare not admit and i think there's some truth in it.
Sunday, August 23, 2009
♥ 8:10 PM
actually im quite lazy to blog. Dad just called and asked if i wanna go to Beijing in sept. THIS IS SO TEMPTING! oh man~
okay, i wanted to blog about sth but decided not to cox the words just could not flow
Sunday, August 16, 2009
♥ 11:04 PM
I'm seriously deprived of games! I want to buy a PlayStation 3 after my As!
Monday, August 03, 2009
♥ 9:50 PM
Wisdom is so important. It's so silly sometimes to do things without wisdom. Yes, one may have knowledge, but if you use it at the wrong time, to the wrong person, it will still fail.
I feel that looking at the big picture is one of the most important skills of having wisdom. Sometimes we can get so occupied by looking out for all the tiny little mistakes that we miss out the most important one right in front of us.
Anw, why i'm saying this is cox i was late for school today. i know, it's my fault, and i dont blame anyone for it. and it's my 3rd time so i decided to go to the polyclinic to get an mc in order to not get suspended from school. so i queued at the clinic for more than 2 hours and after that i immediately rushed back to school hoping to catch my last 2 lessons. and guess what? the security guard refused to let me in. so i was thinking of reasons why he would not let me in and the only one i could think of was because i got mc, the school could be afraid that i'd spread the virus to other ppl. so i explained to the security that my mc stated that i had headache. But, he still refused to let me in. so i told him that it's my A level year and asked if he could kindly just allow me to attend my last 2 hour of lessons, and he said the OM would scold him if he did that. and he said that i could only enter the sch at 1pm (which is when sch is over).
okay, after reading my story of that day let me tell you my conclusion. The school system sucks, the rules are unfair and unflexible. firstly, i THINK that moe built schools to educate and discipline us and not to punish us. There's a difference between discipline and punishment. What i had gone through today is obviously punishment. They're punishing me for being late by refusing my entry to the school to attend my lessons. well, i really dont think what i'm saying is rebellious, but i think that i've been punished enough by having to miss my 1st few lessons and spend time and money at the polyclinic. At least i bothered to go back. i could have just gone home after getting the mc. but because i wanted to study so i went back, and they refused me. unreasonable isn't it? Secondly, the system is obviously silly and flawed. you mean to say that i'm not fit for lessons at 11pm but at 1pm im suddenly well enough to come sch? wow, the miracle of 1pm! do you know why is it so silly? Because they just went against their own goal of educating students. As in, every school will want their students to come to sch and attend lessons right? This is the 1st sch I've been to which regards making the students pay for what they've done higher than teaching them not to miss lessons. Next time if im late, i wont even bother going back to school since they wont let me in. Is this what the school is trying to teach at the end of the day? This brings me to the last point. Thirdly, It's so important so know when's the right time to do what and to differentiate between what's more important and what's not. I cant really explain much of this cox it's really wisdom and i dont think it can be taught. It's like when's the right time to scold and when is the right time to teach. I'm not solely referring to the school here. Even for myself i fall into this trap sometimes. It's like i called my mom after i was refused entry. and the 1st thing she said was," who asked you to be late? i told you to wake up earlier" and throughout the whole conversation she just went on and on about me deserving to be punished. it's like adding salt to the wound you know? I was just thinking in my mind," shouldn't she be more concerned about where am I now or even what am i going to do? or if she's sensitive enough, shouldn't she ask if I'm okay or comfort me a little? It's really scary being locked out of school for the 1st time you know? "
The main point is, the school system sucks. and the teachers and students are just so pitiful to be enslaved by this kind of system.
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