looking forward to start my job. feeling dead tired now. hoping that 6am does not come too soon. need to sleep now. sayonara!
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
♥ 12:01 AM
I think that burdens are good. provided they come from God. cox they give you a direction in life. shows you in a strong and certain way where your heart is really leading you. and Godly fear is good. but humans just have this one weakness of forgetfulness which draws us away from God or take Him for granted.
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
♥ 9:59 PM
I think there wouldn't be testimony for cg on fri, so i shall type it here(:
GOD IS GOOD MAN! no no, good was an understatement. He is unexplainably AWESOME! He's so right! it's indeed been awhile! initially i thought He meant that it's been awhile since i trusted him in this manner. But trust me on this.. there is a level of faith that will blow open the windows of heaven over your life and POUR blessings like a tsunami! yes! it's indeed been awhile since the reality of God hit me in the head like a building fell on me! whee!! i really can't thank Him enough for the things He has done for me.
1) Thank you for the iphone!
2) Thank you for the iphone plan
3) Thank you for the tuition job that pays $20 per hour
4) Thank you for another tuition job that pays $25 per hour
5) Thank you for the universal studios that pays $10 per hour!!!!
This is awesome!! now, let me tell you guys what happened. today i received a call from victor telling me of another tuition assignment for sec sch sci and it starts this sat. so of cox i took it and it pays $25 per hour. so that's great! then later in the afternoon (Thank God i wasn't having my usual afternoon nap), an unknown number called and asked if i was calista. turns out it was from universal studios. so of cox before anything i asked for the pay and the kind lady said $6.50. so of cox, i hesitated. cox it's super far and it's not really worth it for the money considering i could do relief teaching in a sch and earn much more than that. So i told her i'd consider and get back to her, and i got back to watching my korean show. a few minutes later, she called again. i thought she was gonna ask me for a reply now. but to my amazingly delightful surprise, she apologised for having quoted the wrong pay and she said it's $10 per hour! IMMEDIATELY i said i'll take the job!
Is this awesome or what!!! whoo~ and guess what, i have a feeling that this is not the end. There's more to come. i believe that it'll continue to come until i cannot handle it and it flows over to all those around me! that's the kind of abundance i wanna live in!
Malachi 3:10
Bring all the tithes into the storehouse, That there may be food in My house, And try Me now in this,” Says the LORD of hosts, “ If I will not open for you the windows of heaven And pour out for you such blessing That there will not be room enough to receive it.
Thursday, December 10, 2009
♥ 4:13 PM
I'm just so glad that prom is over. phew! i suddenly feel that my heart is very heavy for i dont know what. maybe cox it gained weight? Anw, sometimes it just feels so weird. i kinda hate it when i do things out of habit. but some habits are just hard to kick. yet i feel awkward cox it's merely going through the motions. this is retarded...
Monday, December 07, 2009
♥ 4:05 PM
this post was supposed to be due on sat but i was too tired so.. heck la. HAHA! sleep's more important.
welcome to my world my new friend! Whee~ this is real real awesome! and smsing on this thing is kinda addictive. HAHA. Thank God for free unlimited smses! okay, i need money now! so jobs, interviews, tuition, you better come to me! Wahahaha! i'm dreading wednesday... bye bye
Thursday, December 03, 2009
♥ 12:59 AM
to think that just a month ago i was filled with thoughts of retaining and failing cox it just seemed so impossible that i can even survive the A levels given the state my results are in. and now im just a few hours away to freedom, a few hours away from finishing what i've started for 45 cents of bus fare two years ago. why am i still here typing away? cox i've been sleeping late these few days and it's kinda difficult to fall asleep now. anw, thinking back at what's happened these 2 months, i'm really lost for words at His grace upon my life. I dont really know how to explain it, but it's so obvious to me that, duh! it's not me, but it's all Him. it has always been Him.
No matter what's my result, it doesn't matter anymore. That's not very important anyway. at least it's not the most important. haha. the most i'll just go open mama shop. anybody wanna join me? HAHA! okay. i'm going to try to sleep. and enjoy tomorrow! Whoo~ you know what? actually something that i really wanna do, i wanna enjoy every day of my life!
Wednesday, December 02, 2009
♥ 12:04 PM
came across this on facebook and found it kind of interesting. i call it sheryl's dream life.
I am hereby officially tendering my resignation as an adult. I have decided I would like to accept the responsibilities of an 8 year-old again.
I want to go to McDonald's and think that it's a four star restaurant.
I want to sail sticks across a fresh mud puddle and make a sidewalk with rocks.
I want to think M&Ms are better than money because you can eat them.
I want to lie under a big oak tree and run a lemonade stand with my friends on a hot summer's day.
I want to return to a time when life was simple; When all you knew were colors, multiplication tables, and nursery rhymes, but that didn't bother you, because you didn't know what you didn't know and you didn't care.
All you knew was to be happy because you were blissfully unaware of all the things that should make you worried or upset.
I want to think the world is fair. That everyone is honest and good.
I want to believe that anything is possible. I want to be oblivious to the complexities of life and be overly excited by the little things again.
I want to live simple again. I don't want my day to consist of computer crashes, mountains of paperwork, depressing news, how to survive more days in the month than there is money in the bank, doctor bills, gossip, illness, and loss of loved ones.
I want to believe in the power of smiles, hugs, a kind word, truth, justice, peace, dreams, the imagination, mankind, and making angels in the snow.
So . . . here's my checkbook and my car-keys, my credit card bills and my bank statements. I am officially resigning from adulthood.
And if you want to discuss this further, you'll have to catch me first, cause........ ......“Tag! You're it.“
(Author Unknown but much appreciated)
Monday, November 30, 2009
♥ 5:51 PM
when im bored, this is what i do.
been trying to bake cookies these few days. and im proud to say that im proud of myself despite getting my finger burnt again (:
actually having no school is kind of boring. although sch's boring too, at least there are ppl to entertain you, play itouch with you. at home, it's just me, my dog, and God. and there's nobody to play with me ): i want a ps3! or at least i want my ps2 to come home soon. and im yearning for an iphone!! and i'm sooooo getting that planetshakers album! and i need guitar string! and i wish that 9th dec would just vanish from the calender so i dont have to bother about prom. and i want to get that bio paper over and done with. and i pray that either moe or the tuition agencies get back to me within this 2 weeks. and i want to go overseas SOON. and i wanna go climb mountain! anybody wanna go with me? HAHA.
I NEED SOMETHING TO ENTERTAIN ME!!!
Sunday, November 22, 2009
♥ 4:43 PM
Language is a very important tool. with the right words used, coupled with the appropriate sentence structure, we can make a harsh comment with little or even no hurt involved and yet get our point across. or from the opposite view, a simple comment can turn into a quarrel if the wrong words were used. So when we improve on our language, it shouldn't just be about improving our self-image, but i feel that there's a greater purpose. For others. For christians especially, this is even more important. cox it's when we've honed this skill of language that God can use us to change people's lives through our words. God can't use someone whose words are merely for getting the job done, because if the person is just saying it because he has to, there will be no love in whatever he says. too often, our words are just about OURSELVES, about how WE can feel good, how WE can feel in charge. and we dont even know that it's these things that brings hurt to others. But then again, we're all imperfect. So it's normal to fail once in a while as long as we try. But are we even trying?
Right intention + wrong words/wrong method = misunderstanding
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
♥ 11:21 PM
truth is, most of the time, it's not the situation. it's our minds that trap us.
2012 is nice! the scariest part was when the dog had to cross over this metal thing to get to the owner. my heart almost stopped pumping! really!!!
anyway, the show kind of made me think? not that the end of the world is not already constantly on my mind, but i just feel a little confused. What if the world really ends in 2012? (which i highly doubt so) but maybe it'll be like the movie? not really judgement day, but rather a huge catastrophe that will wipe out 99% of us. Will you fight with everything you have to live? or just accept it and let the waves crush you? I really dont want the world to end tomorrow. cox it would have meant that i spent my last few months studying.... which is retarded....
Monday, November 16, 2009
♥ 9:33 PM
I'm waiting I'm waiting on You, Lord And I am hopeful I'm waiting on You, Lord Though it is painful But patiently, I will wait
I will move ahead, bold and confident Takeing every step in obedience While I'm waiting I will serve You While I'm waiting I will worship While I'm waiting I will not faint I'll be running the race Even while I wait
I'm waiting I'm waiting on You, Lord And I am peaceful I'm waiting on You, Lord Though it's not easy But faithfully, I will wait Yes, I will wait I will serve You while I'm waiting I will worship while I'm waiting I will serve You while I'm waiting I will worship while I'm waiting I will serve you while I'm waiting I will worship while I'm waiting on You, Lord
I'm addicted to this song now. i feel that this song speaks so much about how we should relate to God. That at times when we're uncertain, when we feel that the road ahead is difficult, we dont demand God, we dont stop doing what we're called to do, but we WAIT upon Him.
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
♥ 11:47 PM
WOULD YOU BELIEVE ME IF I SAID THAT WE ARE THE ONES WHO CAN MAKE THE CHANGE IN THE WORLD TODAY
WOULD YOU BELIEVE ME IF I SAID THAT ALL OF THE DREAMS IN YOUR HEART CAN COME TRUE TODAY
WOULD YOU BELIEVE ME IF I SAID THAT LIFE CAN BE ALL THAT YOU WANT IT TO BE TODAY
AND IF I HAD WINGS I WOULD FLY 'CAUSE ALL THAT I NEED, YOU ARE AND IF THE WORLD CAVED IN AROUND ME TO YOU I'D STILL HOLD ON 'CAUSE YOU'RE ALL THAT I BELIEVE AND THE ONE THAT CREATED ME JESUS, BECAUSE OF YOU I'M FREE
WOULD YOU BELIEVE ME IF I SAID THAT GOD CAN MAKE MIRACLES HAPPEN TODAY WOULD YOU BELIEVE ME IF I SAID THAT YOU DON'T NEED TO WAIT FOR THE ANSWERS BEFORE YOU STEP OUT IN FAITH
WOULD YOU BELIEVE ME IF I SAID THAT NOTHING IS EVER IMPOSSIBLE FOR GOD
JUST LIVE YOUR LIFE WITH GOD INSIDE YOU WON'T REGRET ONE MOMENT OF IT AND GIVE ALL THAT YOU CAN FOR GOD FOR GOD
Monday, November 09, 2009
♥ 6:34 PM
You know why A level isn't scary? because my Father set it.
I'm not prepared. I know no matter how much time I'm given to prepare, I never will be. But that's the way my Daddy works. He doesn't put me through any test or exam, or ask me to do anything that I feel that I'm well prepared or well skilled for. He knows how I work. He knows that if He sends me a task that i can accomplish with my own capabilities, I will become proud. So He always sends the "impossible" and work on it with me. This way, it brings the both of us closer and i can accomplish the task without falling into pride. plus, when my Daddy does something, He doesn't just do it mediocrely, He makes sure the work is excellent.
Sunday, November 08, 2009
♥ 11:02 PM
Something interesting that i learnt this week...
God knows how we humans are wired up. He knows that if we can earn money/ work for 7 days a week, 24 hours a day, we will. That's why He gave us the commandment to remember the sabbath day by keeping it holy. from monday to saturday, we are working, and so is God. But He rests on the seventh day. So what makes you think if you work on the seventh day, God will work with you?
Thursday, November 05, 2009
♥ 10:49 PM
money, is it really so important? What's with that few pieces of paper if it's not a matter of life and death? why are people so self-centered when it comes to money? come on, there's so much that you're missing out on if all you think about of is yourself and your money. gosh! i know that you're trying to do something. but has it ever occurred to you that I'm also trying to do sth here and it's much more urgent and important?? how difficult is it to see that I'm kind of struggling and the least you can do is to leave me alone? argh!!
a person's maturity can be seen from the standards of priority they hold in their life. what's important, what's urgent. i really cant stress this enough. sometimes i wonder. is it really so difficult so judge what's important and what's urgent? i guess i really really need to be more patient, understanding and wise. or i'll explode.
Tuesday, November 03, 2009
♥ 10:24 PM
human beings. when will we start saying what we mean and what what we say? i think at least 90% of us fall into the category of merely offering lip service. we say we'll be at a certain place at a certain time but we're late. we always tell our friends," we'll meet up soon yea?" but we really dont want to free up time to meet them. how about this? we tell God," God, we love You, we give our lives to You, we're fully committed to You." but how much of it do we really mean what we say?
I conclude, all human beings are selfish. haha. Truth is, most of the things we do are driven by fear. we fear losing our "face" so we act friendly. we fear going to hell, so we decide to turn to faith. we fear being alone so we find friends. we fear rejection, so we live by "obligation".
end of the day, we all get to choose. and our so called " obligation" is us choosing fear over what our heart wants us to do.
so then, what kind of fear do you have?
Monday, October 26, 2009
♥ 10:14 PM
there's this article in the latest broader perspective issue which talks about taking responsibility i think there's a lot of truth in that article. But one thing which really stood out to me was this line," If a husband claims that he loves his wife, but his wife doesn't feel loved, the husband does not love the wife."
I've been thinking about this for a few days now and I've decided to accept the fact that this statement may not necessarily be right. Initially when i read this, i really agreed with it because i believe that love should be tangible, real and evident. As in, i believe that the extend of one's love for somebody can be seen/ measured by the amount of time they spend/ the things they give each other/ the thoughts they share because if you really think about it, it seems very natural that if you love someone, you'll want to spend time with them, you'll want to give them priority over yourself, you'll give them the best gifts you can possibly give.
But today i realised that this may not be true. Each person has their own love language. and your love language may not be the same as the person you love. if to that person sharing things or incidents, basically telling you every important event in that person's life, is something that is considered very intimate, but on your part you feel that it's the most basic and normal thing and it's insufficient to make you feel important, isn't it a little unfair to that person to say that he/ she does not think that you are important? so in this case, to better gauge how important you are, maybe it's better to find out whether the things this person does for you makes him/ her more vulnerable to you compared to other people.
But then again, if someone tells you that he/ she does not feel important/ loved, maybe it's really time to find out where has things gone wrong, or maybe put in the extra effort to make things work? cox i think that if someone even bothers to raise the issue means that not all is gone and there's still room for improvement. well, end of the day, i think what's most important is to be real to yourself and others.
anw, to you, sorry. you are very important to me. really. but i like the way things are now. hope that things work out for you and js (:
Friday, October 16, 2009
♥ 9:07 PM
Since it's graduation day, i shall write sth for 08S07.
Actually yesterday when we went K i wanted to sing you girls this song but i was too shy. so just listen to the original okay? i think it pretty much expresses what i want to say
This translation is specially done for the convenience of Queennie(:
Thank you for walking this journey with me and light up my days when it seems so dark. Because of the care and concern from you girls I am able to have more courage. Thank you for accompanying me, for showing the most truthful and honest side of you. Time can wait, let our thoughts be warmed by love, let the coldness of our happiness be rejuvenated. It's you, who silently placed blessings into my hands, like the wind blowing the clouds always without a trace. I close my eyes and i can feel you so clearly. It's you, who gently wrote happiness into my expression.
i know my translation kind sucks. but it's e thought that counts right? this kind of thing only comes once in a lifetime so treasure it okay!
♥ 6:45 PM
What's important? What's urgent? What's important and urgent? What's more important and urgent?
why do i still feel so tired? humans... how can God stand us when we're so imperfect? the things we do to each other can already be so hurting/ rejecting/ disappointing, let alone the accumulation of every single one of our wrongdoings to God. How does He do it? Is it because He knows everything?
I feel like i'm doing it all over again. now im back to where i started.
Sunday, October 11, 2009
♥ 7:15 PM
i was watching some christian youtube videos and i find some things which were mentioned kinda funny. there was this guy who is a christian and he's very anti-atheist. however i find his arguments kind of flawed. as in for everything ranging from whether God exists, evolution, turning water into wine, and many other questions and Bible examples he brought up, he merely refuted them by saying that it's all not true cox the Bible says so. haha. it's not that i disagree with him that God exists and blah blah blah. but i just found it kinda silly that he used the Bible as the main argument point since atheists regards the Bible as any ordinary book found in book stores. so i was just thinking from an atheist point of view and found it kind of silly. cox can you imagine if you just pick any book from the shelves and it tells you that your dog has supernatural powers and you believe it with all your heart without having any concrete evidence? silly isn't it? haha.
Anyway, i was supposed to find some stuff about science and religion. so i decided to comment a little about it here. i believe in evolution. and i also believe that God created man in his image, not as monkeys. well, darwin says that everything existing goes through a process called natural selection right? he's right. even as humans we observe very strong competition, leading to survival of the fittest. however, i really dont think that we came all the way from monkeys. as in there are even lizards or insects which share 90+% genetic similarity compared to human genes. so our relatives are insects? HAHA! well, i believe that the reason for these genetic similarities is that our God is a consistent God. there're certain genes which codes for certain proteins which makes up our body (phenotype). eg, membranes are universal, specific enzymes are universal. and these proteins are necessary in ALL living organisms. if not how can lucky digest his food? so that means that both my dog and i share similar genes. but that doesn't mean we evolved from one organism. it only means that we originate from the consistent mind of the same one God who created the world.
end of the day, God created everything right? so, every idea, invention, theory, conjured by human mind, God allowed it. so anw, that's my stand and i feel that it makes much more sense than just saying," we did not originate from monkeys because the Bible says so." (:
Thursday, September 24, 2009
♥ 9:20 PM
i think this song is kinda nice and encouraging
♥ 8:32 PM
something to hold on, something to hope for, something to look forward to, something to lessen this load, something practical, something that is secure, something that makes me happy.
nevermind. i just need a holiday, a break, a vacation, a time out, or in my dictionary, an escape from reality.
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